Love Did Exist
Nov. 28th, 2013 05:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kumo_is_kumoTitle: Love Did Exist
Pairing: Jongkey
Genre: Romance, Fluffy
Length: Oneshot
Summary: Kibum never believed in the existence of love.
Love Did Exist
It had been so hard for Kibum to bear. Living in the abusive family and cruel neighborhood, he wanted nothing but freedom. Kibum had been so physically tired from all of those things and he had decided to run away from that hell house.
He just wanted anything rather than the abusive life. He wanted to feel a different feeling in his heart; not like the usual empty feeling which was pressed against his chest.
What was it called? ... Ah. Love.
Remembering that word, Kibum frowned. What was love? Was that even existed? Why did he never see any sign of love in his life? What was the sign of love? Was it warming? Was it cruel? Was it nice? Was it happened often?
But, again. Did love really exist in this life?
If love did really exist, Kibum just hoped that there would be someone who would like to love him.
***
He had to start everything from the very beginning again. He was so hungry yet he only had a few coins of money with him. His body was only covered with the most comfortable blouse that he ever had and a pair of blue jeans that he could find in his closet. His eyes started to feel tired from walking block by block of neighborhood. He tried to find a decent place to sleep for a night but he found none. Everything was so hard for him.
Five days passed and Kibum felt his body became weaken. The money in his pocket was long gone due to the starving feeling that he felt. Not to mention his body was drenched from the rain from the night before and his blouse was nowhere to keep him warm. His body was shivering and Kibum just knew that he got fever from the cold temperature. His pink lips turned white and his eyes felt heavy. Some whimpers escaped his lips when the wind was blowing purposely to make him felt worse. His whole body was trembling and he felt how his knees were slowly buckling to the ground in weakness.
Kibum bumped into someone in a harsh collide and he yelped in pain. He heard the loud snarl from the person and Kibum quickly bowed his already-spinning head to apologize. He was about to walk away when the person grabbed onto his upper arm harshly, preventing him from going away. Kibum looked up with blurred eyes and watched how the person’s eyes were filled in lust while glaring at his trembled body up and down. Kibum begged to be released away but the man insisted to drag him from the current spot. Kibum struggled all he could to break free from the hurting grip when the man started to touch him in an inappropriate way.
After some whining and protesting, the man grew angry at him and hit him across his face, sending Kibum down with cheek against the harsh-cold ground first. The man spitted on him before walking away, leaving him alone and weak on the empty ground. Kibum sighed; both from relieved and pain. He no longer could move his body, not even a single muscle, and he let himself being drifted away in sleepiness.
Ah, whatever. I’m going to die anyway...
The last thing that Kibum could see before he lost consciousness was a pair of puppy eyes staring gently at him.
***
Kibum stirred softly before his feline eyes were opened. He blinked the drowsiness away and sighed at the pain strike across his body. Wait. Pain? Didn’t he die already? How could he still felt pain?
He stared up and was greeted by a golden chandelier on the beige-colored ceiling. A frown was appearing on his face. Where was him?
“Oh, you are awake?” came the gentle voice that made Kibum turned to find the source of the voice. Kibum startled when he found a man was sitting on the chair beside the bed he was laying on. Kibum then realized the pair of puppy eyes which was the last thing he saw. This man rescued him?
“W-Where am I?” Kibum asked, noticing how hoarse his voice was. The man smiled at him and Kibum found himself melting in no particular reason.
“I bring you to my house. How do you feel?”
“...tired. M-May I know why did you save me?” asked Kibum carefully; afraid of hurting the man’s feeling. Instead, the man smiled wider at him and shrugged his shoulder. “I don’t know. I just wanted to save you.”
Kibum realizes that he was still laying on the bed and he found it so rude. He abruptly sat up and winced when the sudden headache hit him. The man touched Kibum’s temple gently and Kibum froze. No one had ever touched him this gentle. No one.
“You still have a bit fever. Why don’t you lay down?”
“I... I...”
“It’s okay. You will feel a lot of better if you lay down a bit. Okay?”
Kibum hesitantly nodded his head and let himself being pushed down to lay down again on the fluffy bed. He felt a soft caress on his head from the stranger’s hand and Kibum frozen. It was really nice to have someone actually care for him.
The sleepiness kicked in again and before he was fully asleep, Kibum managed to say a few words: “Y-Your name...?”
Smiling, the stranger brushed Kibum’s bangs away from his temple and whispered the answer: “Jonghyun.”
***
First meeting turned out to be the very important meeting that had caused Kibum’s life to change drastically. Jonghyun turned out to be a very kind man and it proved from the very first moment Kibum woke up. He turned out to be a man that Kibum had never imagined to meet before. The man had a pair of puppy-like eyes, staring so innocently at him while talking. The way his blonde hair shone from the sun shine which entered from the big window above the luxurious bed made Kibum wanted to feel how soft the blond hair against his palm. Maybe he could try it later, if he got a chance.
The first few days, Kibum was bought to shop a few decent clothes, when in the end they ended up buying the whole shop stocks. Kibum had looked down for the entire journey, letting out some soft answers when the puppy man was asking him about some things. Kibum didn’t know what to do though. This kind man was the one who saved him when he thought he was about to die. He couldn’t say no to what this man was saying.
The next few days, Kibum was brought to explore the whole house. He even forgot whether the man had asked him about living here or whether he had agreed to stay here.
In the end, Kibum just stayed silent for the entire time.
***
“J-Jonghyun-ssi...?” It took a lot of courage before Kibum had let out the words. The said man turned from the paper works he was working on and stared at Kibum with excitement. It was not every day he would hear the boy initiated the first conversation. “Yes?”
“U-Um... What are you doing...?”
Jonghyun smiled at the innocent question. He shrugged before taking off the working glasses, massaging the bridge of his nose. He stood up and walked to the bed where the feline boy was sitting still.
“I was working. Are you bored? You want to do something else?” asked the man while caressing Kibum on his head. Kibum froze and quickly shook his head. “D-Did I disturb you? Why did you stop? I’m sorry...!”
Jonghyun laughed softly and the sound sent an electric sensation through Kibum’s whole body. His voice was so soft and melodic. Kibum would never got bored hearing to it.
“No, no. I just tired working those papers. What about we do something else? Are you hungry?”
Kibum shook his head no, not wanting to bother the kind man. As if his body knew what he was thinking, his tummy made a loud sound and Kibum clenched on his belly in embarrassment. Jonghyun laughed loudly and his puppy eyes were twinkling in pure happiness.
“You shouldn’t hide it! Come on, let’s get some foods!”
***
Jonghyun swore that this boy was the cutest person that he ever met for his entire life. Right at the moment after the boy’s tummy made a rather embarrassing sound, the feline boy bit down on his lower lip and whimpered shyly. Oh, life could never get better. Jonghyun had to hold himself from pouncing onto the cutie boy and squish him to death. This boy was way too cute!
“You shouldn’t hide it! Come on, let’s get some foods!”
The feline boy stared up at him in a questioning gaze, like asking whether that fine was. Jonghyun grinned widely and gently grabbed the boy’s wrist, pulling him out from the bed. He could feel the warmness of the boy by holding him like this and he couldn’t push the smile off from his face. The journey from the room down to the kitchen was rather short but it was enough for Jonghyun to savor the blessed feeling of the boy’s skin under his palm.
“Sit here, okay?” said Jonghyun while softly pushing the boy to sit on the chair by the counter. The boy obediently sat there while watching him working on the cabinet, trying to find something to eat.
“What should we eat? I don’t know. What would you like?” Jonghyun asked before turning around fully to face the silent boy. He could see the boy was biting down on his lip again before looking down on his folded hands on top of his lap. Jonghyun grinned at the adorable sight.
“A-Anything is fine...” whispered he and Jonghyun hummed understandingly. He decided to take out a bowl of potato chips and put it down on the counter. Kibum was staring questioningly at him and Jonghyun couldn’t help but chuckled.
“Eat some first. I’ll make dinner, it’s already the time though,” said Jonghyun while ruffling the boy’s hairs. He swore he could see the boy was pouting at his gesture but when he blinked his eyes, he found nothing but the boy was silently taking a chip into his mouth. Jonghyun moved away from the counter and started making dinner for both of them, since he sent his maids away for weekend.
***
Kibum gulped down the remaining food in his mouth before coughing softly. He could hear the soft chuckle from the puppy-eyed man and he was getting a glass of water. He quickly took the glass and gulped down the water hastily.
“Why so fast? Don’t choke yourself again.” Said the kind man and Kibum could only nod. It had been a while since he ate something so good like this.
“Do you like the fish and chips?” asked the man and Kibum quickly nodded his head again.
“T-This is so good... Thank you...”
The Jonghyun guy grinned widely at him and Kibum swore the man really looked like an adorable puppy just now. He managed to let out a small smile since he couldn’t contain his fondness towards puppies. But the smile on his face fell the moment Jonghyun frowned. Did he do something wrong? Or maybe he already forgot the way to smile until his face made some weird move?
“W-What’s wrong?” he dared to ask. Jonghyun averted his gaze away from him and Kibum looked down, blinking away the sudden tears in his eyes. Was he really that disgusting until someone as kind as this man wasn’t going to stare too long at him?
“It’s... nothing. Mm, may I ask something to you?”
Kibum froze but nodded anyway. He closed his eyes, waiting for the harsh words, curse words, or the words like ‘get away’ or ‘get out’ to be said by the man, yet they were not coming.
“Why don’t you smile?”
His eyes opened at the moment he heard the question. He slowly lifted his head and held himself from yelping as he found the man’s face was so close to him. Kibum threw his gaze away again.
“Hey,” called Jonghyun while lifting his hand, reaching towards him. Kibum closed his eyes and whimpered, waiting for the hand to make a harsh contact with his cheek. But when he felt a warm hand was holding onto his face gently, Kibum’s heart thumped faster against his ribcage.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?” Jonghyun asked him while rubbing his thumb on the soft cheek. Kibum parted his lips in silent, words stuck on his tongue. When was the last time someone was touching him this gentle?
“Kibum?”
He quickly shook the thought away and forced his voice out. “I-I’m fine...”
Jonghyun frowned at his answer but offered him a soft smile. “If there’s something you would like to say, just tell me, okay?” Kibum stared at him before hesitantly nodded his head. Jonghyun smiled at him and leaned closer, pressing a soft peck against his temple. Kibum’s eyes grew twice bigger from their usual size and he gasped softly. Jonghyun pulled away and brushed the bangs away from Kibum’s temple, smiling so handsomely before walking into the kitchen.
There was only one thought in Kibum’s mind: ‘My chest feels so warm...’
***
Times passed and it took a long time for Kibum to realize that he had been living with Jonghyun for months, three months exactly. And he couldn’t be happier than this. Jonghyun understood him and he understood Jonghyun as well. He smiled more often, he laughed more often, and he let out his thoughts for Jonghyun. He changed Kibum in many different sides. Kibum’s life right now was at the most amazing state.
It also took a long time until Kibum understood what was happening with himself. Everytime he stayed beside Jonghyun, he would feel his heart was beating so ridiculously fast. He blushed more often just from looking Jonghyun smiled. He liked the feeling of Jonghyun’s affection towards him. Everything that Jonghyun did was succeed in making him smile.
Wait.
What did you call it?
Love?
Was love even existed? Didn’t it forget about someone named Kim Kibum already?
“Kibum-ah!”
Kibum woke from his deep thoughts when he felt the gentle touch on his face. Jonghyun was staring at him worriedly and it made Kibum’s stomach flipped in a funny movement. “Mm?”
“Are you okay? You are spacing out just now.”
“I’m fine...”
Jonghyun sighed softly and caressed Kibum’s white cheeks with his palms. Sure, skin ship had already been a usual thing for both of them. Kibum found that Jonghyun liked skin ship very much and who was Kibum to say no to him?
Leaning on the touch on his face, Kibum smiled at him. “It’s nothing... Don’t worry about it...” Hearing that, Jonghyun grinned at him and sat closer to Kibum, legs folded on the bed. They were currently on his room and sitting face to face on top of the fluffy bed.
“Kibum-ah,” called Jonghyun. Kibum blinked at him, waiting for the next words to come. He almost whined at the loss of contact when Jonghyun pulled his hands away from his cheeks and instead holding onto both of his hands. Jonghyun bit down on his own lip, looked hesitate to talk. Kibum smiled at the adorable sight. Jonghyun was indeed his favorite puppy forever.
“What is it?” he asked Jonghyun softly and felt Jonghyun was squeezing his hands.
“There’s something I want to tell you... Aish.”
Kibum frowned. What was it?
“I... I... Shit...”
“Jonghyun?”
“You know... Uhh...”
“Jonghyun, what’s wro—”
“I like you.”
The world seemed to spin around Kibum as the words were repeating themselves in Kibum’s mind. Like? As in like?
“...”
“Kibum? Uhh, it’s... I mean... Listen. I like you, no, more than like... I think I... love you... It’s been a while since we knew each other but I think I’ve liked you since the first time I saw you, so... Yeah, well, I don’t know what should I say but one thing that I’m sure is I... fall in love with you... I—Kibum?”
He stopped talking at the moment his gaze fell onto the sight of Kibum’s crying face. Kibum’s face was blank but the tears were running down his pale cheeks with no mercy. He reached out to wipe the tears away when Kibum spoke up. “Is... Is that true...?”
Jonghyun frowned at the question but nodded. “Of course! Why would I lie to you?”
“D-Does... Does love even exist...? I-I don’t know what love is...”
Jonghyun froze at the sentence. He carefully brought the weeping boy against his chest, hearing the muffled sobbing throughout the room. He rubbed his hand up and down the boy’s back to calm him down.
After seemed like an eternity, Kibum calmed down and pressed his face closer to the warm chest, liking the feeling.
“Kibum-ah, could you hear my heart?”
Kibum nodded at the question. The arms around him were tightening in each second and he was grateful for that. “It’s always like that. Everytime I have you near me, my heart would beat so fast that I think I would die. My stomach would feel like flipping up and down and I feel butterflies in my tummy. Everything about you makes a lot of wonders to me. Do you know that?”
Kibum listened carefully at the sentences and closed his eyes. His grip on Jonghyun’s blouse was tightening and he slowly leaned back from the hug.
Could he do this?
“I... I...”
“Just say it to me, Kibum, it is okay...” said Jonghyun while wiping the remaining tears away from the swollen eyelids. Kibum gulped down his saliva before staring away. “I-I don’t know what to say but... can I say that I feel the same as you feel...?”
A smile quickly formed on Jonghyun’s lips and Kibum was brought into a tight hug. His nose bumped against Jonghyun’s broad shoulder, a soft yelp escaped his lips. “You sure, Kibum-ah? Are you sure you feel the same as me? Oh, you don’t know how happy I am!”
Kibum nodded his head and closed his eyes when he felt the ams around his body were tightening the embrace. Maybe, just maybe, love really existed. Maybe, Jonghyun could be his love. Maybe, Jonghyun could love him and could give him the love that he had been searching for his entire life.
***
Every single second had become the happiest time for Kibum. It had been three months since their confession and Kibum could say that he was the happiest person all over the world. Jonghyun pampered him with the endless love for every single second, giving him extra care here and there.
It was until one day, Kibum woke up from the soft knocks on the door. He rubbed his eyes with his fists and whimpered at the blinding sun shine.
“Kibum-ah, can I come in?”
“Umm...”
Jonghyun entered the room and grinned at the adorable sight of Kibum wrapped around the thick blanket. He climbed on top of the bed and pressed a soft peck on Kibum’s temple.
“Sleep well?”
“Mmh!” Kibum nodded at him with a sweet smile that it made Jonghyun smiled widely. He reached to organize the messy hair of Kibum and the younger boy seemed to realize the condition of his hair. He grinned cutely and tried to reach up and touch his hair, but stopped by Jonghyun who grabbed his wrists. Kibum stared at him in confuse and he blushed madly when Jonghyun kissed every fingers of his.
“Get ready, okay? I want to take you somewhere.”
“Don’t you have to work?” asked Kibum softly and Jonghyun rubbed his thumbs over the pale cheeks. “No. I take a day off today. Get ready, Bummie.”
Kibum turned red at the nickname, not accustomed yet with the new pet name. He nodded silently and got up from the bed, heading towards the bathroom.
Where would they go today? Kibum giggled at the thought of them going on a date. It must be cute!
***
It turned out that Jonghyun was taking him to every single shop at the mall, buying everything that he thought would look good on Kibum. The younger boy frowned at the action but said nothing to reject it. It was when he whined silently at how tired his legs were and it made Jonghyun stopped walking. He smiled and ruffled Kibum’s hair softly, earning a soft whine of annoyance from Kibum when his hair was being touched.
They headed to the nearest fast food place and Jonghyun told him to order everything that Kibum liked. They are in silent until Kibum spoke out his mind.
“Jonghyun?”
“Yes, Bummie-ah?”
“Mm... Why are you taking me shopping today? Is there something happen?”
Jonghyun glanced at him and shook his head, telling him, “You would know it later.” Hearing this, Kibum pouted slightly and whined when Jonghyun pinched his cheek. “So cute.”
The blush was coming back to his face and Kibum stuffed his mouth with the burger to hide his shyness. Jonghyun grinned at him and continued staring at his lover while thinking about his next plan for the night.
Night came and Kibum was exhausted. Jonghyun was taking him to every store and shop and he could no more move his legs to another round of walk. He huffed in exhaustion when finally they got into the car, while Jonghyun was talking about the next plan—the last plan—for the day. His ears perked up upon hearing the word ‘dinner’ since he had been so hungry already. Jonghyun grinned at his little lover and drove faster towards the last plan place.
***
Kibum gaped at the place. It was Han River yet he felt like never coming here before. The place was decorated with shining lamps and flowers and so on, Kibum couldn’t name them. He turned to see Jonghyun and the older man just smiled at him. Jonghyun grabbed his hand and pulled him to the dinner table by the river, another thing that made Kibum gaped in surprise.
“J-Jonghyun, what is this...?”
“Kibummie, happy birthday.”
Birthday? Today was his birthday? How could Kibum not remember it?
“B-Birthday...?”
“Come here.” Jonghyun led him to sit on the chair in front of the round dinner table. The foods were so sparkling on his eyes as Kibum felt his eyes were starting to water. He never got someone celebrated his birthday before and this was the first time. His chest felt so full and his lips were shaking.
“Kibum? You don’t like it?”
Kibum abruptly stood up and threw his body against Jonghyun. He wrapped his arms around the older man tightly, not wanting to let go. He sobbed against Jonghyun’s coat and felt the man was hugging him back.
“T-Thank you... Thank you so much... I... I can’t... I don’t know... Jonghyun, you...”
“Shh. Don’t cry, today is your birthday. Okay?”
He leaned back and wiped the endless tears with his thumbs. Kibum sniffed and giggled softly, showing the happiest look on his face which he never shown to anyone before. Jonghyun froze and he felt his heart thumped so fast against his chest. He cradled the frozen cheeks into his palms and stared into Kibum’s teary eyes.
“Kibum... I love you so much.”
Kibum whimpered at the confession and cried harder. His body was tingling in happiness and he felt like flying. Why did the sentence have a big impact to him?
Jonghyun took a step forward and he leaned closer. His head tilted to left and his eyes fluttered close, lips aiming to Kibum’s slightly parted one. Sensing what was coming; Kibum closed his eyes tightly and shivered when he felt Jonghyun’s lips found his. His first kiss... was for Jonghyun. His first love was Jonghyun. His first birthday was celebrated by Jonghyun. The first happy tears which were spilled from his eyes were because of Jonghyun.
Jonghyun was his everything.
The kiss ended softly and Jonghyun smiled softly at him. He pressed their forehead together and Kibum clung tightly at his coat, blushing from the stare.
“Thank you, Jonghyun... and I love you.”
***
They shared some little kisses everytime they had a chance. Kibum would blush from the affection yet he seemed couldn’t take off his hands from Jonghyun as well. The older man would like to hug him tightly to his chest and then placed pecks after pecks all over his face. His arms would hold Kibum protectively and then Kibum would snuggle closer to him.
The words ‘I love you’ had become more often to be spilled from their lips. The stealing-kisses games would sometimes turned to be a passionate kissing game, leaving Kibum breathless on the bed and Jonghyun stared down at him with swollen lips.
But, nowadays, Kibum had felt something different from Jonghyun’s soft touches. Was Jonghyun thinking the same as what Kibum thought?
“J-Jjong...” called Kibum right after Jonghyun pulled away from their hot kiss. Jonghyun hummed at him and brushed the bangs away from his temple. Kibum parted his lips but sealed them right away as he couldn’t say it. Jonghyun frowned from the lack of response and pressed his nose against the younger boy’s neck, sniffing the unique fragrance. Kibum shivered from the action and closed his eyes.
“What’s wrong, Bummie?”
“I... Do you... You...”
“What is it?” Jonghyun lifted himself up and propped himself with his elbows beside the younger boy’s head. He pecked his cheek and smiled, urging him to talk.
“Um... Do you... Could it be... Do you want to...”
“Bummie. Say it.”
Kibum shook his head and pulled Jonghyun down for another kiss. He wrapped his arms around the older man’s neck tightly and in a few moments, Jonghyun had ravished him against the bed. The lips were moving so harsh and Kibum shivered from the good feeling. He felt Jonghyun’s hand was rubbing his waist in circular motion and there was poking on his lips. He eagerly welcomed Jonghyun’s tongue into his mouth and the make out session turned Kibum’s body hot.
He whimpered when Jonghyun trapped his tongue with his teeth softly and then rolled it back into his mouth. The hand on his waist had gone under his shirt and tenderly caressing his flat stomach. He gasped for air when Jonghyun traced his lips down his jaw and then nibbling softly on his neck.
His vision was blurred at he stared at the ceiling. Jonghyun continued to shower him with kisses all over his neck and he felt that the time had come.
“J-Jonghyun...”
“Mm?”
“T... T-Take me...”
Jonghyun abruptly stopped all of his actions and stared into the younger’s eyes. Kibum could see the lust in the brown eyes and he panted from the kiss. Jonghyun smiled and caressed his face, asking whether he was serious with his words. Kibum nodded and gasped when Jonghyun brushed his fingers over the hardening buds on his chest.
Their eyes locked and in a blink of an eye, he let himself being ravaged by the beast that Jonghyun had hold in him. Whimpers and soft moans were escaping his swollen lips as his clothes were discarded one by one. He stared up into Jonghyun’s eyes and let Jonghyun did wonders to him.
Soon, Jonghyun was whispering sweet words into his ears as he prepared him. Kibum let out a shriek cry when Jonghyun finally entered him, fingers clutching onto the tanned arms. The soft kisses along his neck helped him to forget the pain and then they moved in sync, bodies tangled together in an intimate way.
When he opened his eyes, he saw Jonghyun’s face was contorted with pleasure and Kibum smiled. He reached up to touch the sweaty face of his lover and it made Jonghyun stared at him, asking him whether he was okay. Kibum nodded his head and hugged Jonghyun tightly against his body, whispering: I love you, Jonghyun.
Jonghyun chuckled softly as his action and brought his body even closer, pressing their bare bodies together. He began to move again and Kibum whimpered from the pleasure. Never had he felt so much pleasure and love in his life.
“I love you...”
***
No matter how Kibum was happy at that time, every happiness wouldn’t last long.
It had been a while since their last time being intimate and Kibum knew that Jonghyun had been very tired from over working these few days. He wanted to make a special dinner for Jonghyun and maybe they could continue their kisses onto the bed and made love until morning came. But every single plan that he had in his mind was dropped the moment he heard some maids were talking.
“I don’t like that kid.”
“Hey, don’t talk like that. Master Jonghyun loves him.”
“I don’t think Master loves him that way. Master Jonghyun is a kind man and he can’t let a poor orphan kid like him suffers. Do you remember that Master Jonghyun had brought a poor kid a few years ago and let that kid stayed here for a while?”
“Yeah, I remember. But I think this is different.”
“Hey! Do you think Master would want a filth kid like him? Just by looking at him makes me sick.”
Kibum ran away from the kitchen and entered the bedroom that he shared with Jonghyun. He just realized it now. There was no way someone as rich and kind like Jonghyun would ignore a poor kid like him. There was no feeling based on their relationship. He was just a poor, filth, orphan kid who happened to be rescued by the rich and kid Kim Jonghyun.
He should have known it. Life wasn’t as pretty as fairytale.
There was no love between them. Maybe Kibum did feel love towards Jonghyun but he didn’t realize that maybe this was just a temporary phase for Jonghyun. Maybe when he found a pretty woman who was at the same level as him, a woman who could give him children, he would kick Kibum out from his house.
Kibum should have known it from the very beginning.
There was no such thing called love in this world.
***
He shivered as the cold night wind blew. His lips were pale from the cold and he sniffed, trying to stop his tears. His heart felt so much pain. Maybe this was why he couldn’t let himself fall in love with someone. Because he knew that in the end, he would feel pain like this.
Kibum tried to seek for a haven since the sky roared a few times, telling him that it was going to rain. Kibum clutched the thin shirt around his body and he entered the dark alley, the place where he belonged to.
The entire time with Jonghyun was such a beautiful dream and Kibum felt like he didn’t want to wake up. But he knew that the dream wouldn’t last too long and he better woke himself up before it was too late.
Another tear dropped from his eye and Kibum clutched his chest. Why was falling in love hurting him so much?
***
Jonghyun went frantic. The moment he stepped into his house, he was greeted by the awkward silence. Something was wrong.
The bedroom was empty, as well as the kitchen. He met the maids who were looking very guilty. When he demanded them to say what happened with a angry glare, both of the maids were apologizing at him, saying that they were talking bad things about their Master’s lover and then they just realized that Kibum was behind the door when they heard footsteps.
Jonghyun growled at them and would like to deal with them later. His first priority was Kibum and he didn’t know where the boy went. He grabbed extra coat since he realized that it was going to rain and drove his car in high speed.
He remembered that the maids were saying that they were talking about how scrubby Kibum’s presence in the house. There was no way he would let Kibum think that way because for him, Kibum was his life.
“Bummie, where are you...?”
He drove passed some dark alleys yet he couldn’t find the boy. He grew worried. He knew that Kibum couldn’t handle cold temperature like this and he was easily fell sick.
His car was passing a certain dark place when he heard a piercing scream which he knew really well.
“Kibum...”
He stopped the car abruptly and ran out from the car, almost stumbling on his way. He ran towards the dark alley and found a man was hovering on top of his Kibum. Jonghyun went rage. He could hear the screams were getting louder and he walked over there, pulling the filth man from his lover and threw a hard punch across the face.
He cradled his weeping lover into his arms, only to feel that Kibum was having fever. The boy was unconscious already and Jonghyun gritted his teeth. He practically ran back to his car and hugged the boy close to his chest, giving him his body warmth.
***
The moment Kibum opened his eyes; he was greeted by a pair of eyes that he loved so much. Did he die already? Was this heaven?
“Bummie! Oh, thanks God!”
This was real?
“Kibum, why are you running away?! Don’t you know how worried I was?!”
Kibum flinched at the raised voice and trembled. He cried again and Jonghyun quickly realized his fault.
“Oh, no, no! Don’t cry! I didn’t mean to shout at you! Kibummie, oh...”
Jonghyun tried to hug him but Kibum backed away. “N-No...”
“Kibum, what’s wrong? Is it about what those maids were saying? You know that’s not true, Kibum!”
“I’m filth...”
Jonghyun embraced the boy close to him, despite Kibum’s struggles. He ignored the ‘let me go’ and placed pecks after pecks on the boy’s head. He could feel Kibum’s shaking form as he cried again.
“Kibum... I love you. Don’t even doubt that. You don’t need to hear what people say, you have to trust me.”
“B-But—”
“There’s no ‘but’, Bummie-ah. I love you and you love me. That’s all that matters. You are my life, my everything, even more important than my own self. So, please... Don’t leave me again...”
By the time he finished his sentence, he felt himself was weeping hardly. The choked sobs were clearly heard against Kibum’s ear. He never saw Jonghyun cried before and this was the first time.
“Jjong...”
“Please, Kibum. I need you. I love you so much.”
Kibum trembled as another urge to cry came again. He cried loudly and hugged the older man tightly, burying his face on the warm chest. Both of them were crying while embracing each other, not wanting to let go anymore.
“Remember this, Kibum,” started Jonghyun when they were starting to calm from crying, “you are my only one. No one else. I love you yesterday, I love you now, and I will still love you until the moment I die.”
Kibum nodded silently and snuggled more to the warm chest of his lover. There was no more that he would doubt.
He knew now that love really did exist. He just hadn’t found it before and now he found his love and it was Jonghyun.
***
A/N: Jongkey oneshot! Anyone like Jongkey here? Hihi, comment! :D
Pairing: Jongkey
Genre: Romance, Fluffy
Length: Oneshot
Summary: Kibum never believed in the existence of love.
It had been so hard for Kibum to bear. Living in the abusive family and cruel neighborhood, he wanted nothing but freedom. Kibum had been so physically tired from all of those things and he had decided to run away from that hell house.
He just wanted anything rather than the abusive life. He wanted to feel a different feeling in his heart; not like the usual empty feeling which was pressed against his chest.
What was it called? ... Ah. Love.
Remembering that word, Kibum frowned. What was love? Was that even existed? Why did he never see any sign of love in his life? What was the sign of love? Was it warming? Was it cruel? Was it nice? Was it happened often?
But, again. Did love really exist in this life?
If love did really exist, Kibum just hoped that there would be someone who would like to love him.
He had to start everything from the very beginning again. He was so hungry yet he only had a few coins of money with him. His body was only covered with the most comfortable blouse that he ever had and a pair of blue jeans that he could find in his closet. His eyes started to feel tired from walking block by block of neighborhood. He tried to find a decent place to sleep for a night but he found none. Everything was so hard for him.
Five days passed and Kibum felt his body became weaken. The money in his pocket was long gone due to the starving feeling that he felt. Not to mention his body was drenched from the rain from the night before and his blouse was nowhere to keep him warm. His body was shivering and Kibum just knew that he got fever from the cold temperature. His pink lips turned white and his eyes felt heavy. Some whimpers escaped his lips when the wind was blowing purposely to make him felt worse. His whole body was trembling and he felt how his knees were slowly buckling to the ground in weakness.
Kibum bumped into someone in a harsh collide and he yelped in pain. He heard the loud snarl from the person and Kibum quickly bowed his already-spinning head to apologize. He was about to walk away when the person grabbed onto his upper arm harshly, preventing him from going away. Kibum looked up with blurred eyes and watched how the person’s eyes were filled in lust while glaring at his trembled body up and down. Kibum begged to be released away but the man insisted to drag him from the current spot. Kibum struggled all he could to break free from the hurting grip when the man started to touch him in an inappropriate way.
After some whining and protesting, the man grew angry at him and hit him across his face, sending Kibum down with cheek against the harsh-cold ground first. The man spitted on him before walking away, leaving him alone and weak on the empty ground. Kibum sighed; both from relieved and pain. He no longer could move his body, not even a single muscle, and he let himself being drifted away in sleepiness.
Ah, whatever. I’m going to die anyway...
The last thing that Kibum could see before he lost consciousness was a pair of puppy eyes staring gently at him.
Kibum stirred softly before his feline eyes were opened. He blinked the drowsiness away and sighed at the pain strike across his body. Wait. Pain? Didn’t he die already? How could he still felt pain?
He stared up and was greeted by a golden chandelier on the beige-colored ceiling. A frown was appearing on his face. Where was him?
“Oh, you are awake?” came the gentle voice that made Kibum turned to find the source of the voice. Kibum startled when he found a man was sitting on the chair beside the bed he was laying on. Kibum then realized the pair of puppy eyes which was the last thing he saw. This man rescued him?
“W-Where am I?” Kibum asked, noticing how hoarse his voice was. The man smiled at him and Kibum found himself melting in no particular reason.
“I bring you to my house. How do you feel?”
“...tired. M-May I know why did you save me?” asked Kibum carefully; afraid of hurting the man’s feeling. Instead, the man smiled wider at him and shrugged his shoulder. “I don’t know. I just wanted to save you.”
Kibum realizes that he was still laying on the bed and he found it so rude. He abruptly sat up and winced when the sudden headache hit him. The man touched Kibum’s temple gently and Kibum froze. No one had ever touched him this gentle. No one.
“You still have a bit fever. Why don’t you lay down?”
“I... I...”
“It’s okay. You will feel a lot of better if you lay down a bit. Okay?”
Kibum hesitantly nodded his head and let himself being pushed down to lay down again on the fluffy bed. He felt a soft caress on his head from the stranger’s hand and Kibum frozen. It was really nice to have someone actually care for him.
The sleepiness kicked in again and before he was fully asleep, Kibum managed to say a few words: “Y-Your name...?”
Smiling, the stranger brushed Kibum’s bangs away from his temple and whispered the answer: “Jonghyun.”
First meeting turned out to be the very important meeting that had caused Kibum’s life to change drastically. Jonghyun turned out to be a very kind man and it proved from the very first moment Kibum woke up. He turned out to be a man that Kibum had never imagined to meet before. The man had a pair of puppy-like eyes, staring so innocently at him while talking. The way his blonde hair shone from the sun shine which entered from the big window above the luxurious bed made Kibum wanted to feel how soft the blond hair against his palm. Maybe he could try it later, if he got a chance.
The first few days, Kibum was bought to shop a few decent clothes, when in the end they ended up buying the whole shop stocks. Kibum had looked down for the entire journey, letting out some soft answers when the puppy man was asking him about some things. Kibum didn’t know what to do though. This kind man was the one who saved him when he thought he was about to die. He couldn’t say no to what this man was saying.
The next few days, Kibum was brought to explore the whole house. He even forgot whether the man had asked him about living here or whether he had agreed to stay here.
In the end, Kibum just stayed silent for the entire time.
“J-Jonghyun-ssi...?” It took a lot of courage before Kibum had let out the words. The said man turned from the paper works he was working on and stared at Kibum with excitement. It was not every day he would hear the boy initiated the first conversation. “Yes?”
“U-Um... What are you doing...?”
Jonghyun smiled at the innocent question. He shrugged before taking off the working glasses, massaging the bridge of his nose. He stood up and walked to the bed where the feline boy was sitting still.
“I was working. Are you bored? You want to do something else?” asked the man while caressing Kibum on his head. Kibum froze and quickly shook his head. “D-Did I disturb you? Why did you stop? I’m sorry...!”
Jonghyun laughed softly and the sound sent an electric sensation through Kibum’s whole body. His voice was so soft and melodic. Kibum would never got bored hearing to it.
“No, no. I just tired working those papers. What about we do something else? Are you hungry?”
Kibum shook his head no, not wanting to bother the kind man. As if his body knew what he was thinking, his tummy made a loud sound and Kibum clenched on his belly in embarrassment. Jonghyun laughed loudly and his puppy eyes were twinkling in pure happiness.
“You shouldn’t hide it! Come on, let’s get some foods!”
Jonghyun swore that this boy was the cutest person that he ever met for his entire life. Right at the moment after the boy’s tummy made a rather embarrassing sound, the feline boy bit down on his lower lip and whimpered shyly. Oh, life could never get better. Jonghyun had to hold himself from pouncing onto the cutie boy and squish him to death. This boy was way too cute!
“You shouldn’t hide it! Come on, let’s get some foods!”
The feline boy stared up at him in a questioning gaze, like asking whether that fine was. Jonghyun grinned widely and gently grabbed the boy’s wrist, pulling him out from the bed. He could feel the warmness of the boy by holding him like this and he couldn’t push the smile off from his face. The journey from the room down to the kitchen was rather short but it was enough for Jonghyun to savor the blessed feeling of the boy’s skin under his palm.
“Sit here, okay?” said Jonghyun while softly pushing the boy to sit on the chair by the counter. The boy obediently sat there while watching him working on the cabinet, trying to find something to eat.
“What should we eat? I don’t know. What would you like?” Jonghyun asked before turning around fully to face the silent boy. He could see the boy was biting down on his lip again before looking down on his folded hands on top of his lap. Jonghyun grinned at the adorable sight.
“A-Anything is fine...” whispered he and Jonghyun hummed understandingly. He decided to take out a bowl of potato chips and put it down on the counter. Kibum was staring questioningly at him and Jonghyun couldn’t help but chuckled.
“Eat some first. I’ll make dinner, it’s already the time though,” said Jonghyun while ruffling the boy’s hairs. He swore he could see the boy was pouting at his gesture but when he blinked his eyes, he found nothing but the boy was silently taking a chip into his mouth. Jonghyun moved away from the counter and started making dinner for both of them, since he sent his maids away for weekend.
Kibum gulped down the remaining food in his mouth before coughing softly. He could hear the soft chuckle from the puppy-eyed man and he was getting a glass of water. He quickly took the glass and gulped down the water hastily.
“Why so fast? Don’t choke yourself again.” Said the kind man and Kibum could only nod. It had been a while since he ate something so good like this.
“Do you like the fish and chips?” asked the man and Kibum quickly nodded his head again.
“T-This is so good... Thank you...”
The Jonghyun guy grinned widely at him and Kibum swore the man really looked like an adorable puppy just now. He managed to let out a small smile since he couldn’t contain his fondness towards puppies. But the smile on his face fell the moment Jonghyun frowned. Did he do something wrong? Or maybe he already forgot the way to smile until his face made some weird move?
“W-What’s wrong?” he dared to ask. Jonghyun averted his gaze away from him and Kibum looked down, blinking away the sudden tears in his eyes. Was he really that disgusting until someone as kind as this man wasn’t going to stare too long at him?
“It’s... nothing. Mm, may I ask something to you?”
Kibum froze but nodded anyway. He closed his eyes, waiting for the harsh words, curse words, or the words like ‘get away’ or ‘get out’ to be said by the man, yet they were not coming.
“Why don’t you smile?”
His eyes opened at the moment he heard the question. He slowly lifted his head and held himself from yelping as he found the man’s face was so close to him. Kibum threw his gaze away again.
“Hey,” called Jonghyun while lifting his hand, reaching towards him. Kibum closed his eyes and whimpered, waiting for the hand to make a harsh contact with his cheek. But when he felt a warm hand was holding onto his face gently, Kibum’s heart thumped faster against his ribcage.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?” Jonghyun asked him while rubbing his thumb on the soft cheek. Kibum parted his lips in silent, words stuck on his tongue. When was the last time someone was touching him this gentle?
“Kibum?”
He quickly shook the thought away and forced his voice out. “I-I’m fine...”
Jonghyun frowned at his answer but offered him a soft smile. “If there’s something you would like to say, just tell me, okay?” Kibum stared at him before hesitantly nodded his head. Jonghyun smiled at him and leaned closer, pressing a soft peck against his temple. Kibum’s eyes grew twice bigger from their usual size and he gasped softly. Jonghyun pulled away and brushed the bangs away from Kibum’s temple, smiling so handsomely before walking into the kitchen.
There was only one thought in Kibum’s mind: ‘My chest feels so warm...’
Times passed and it took a long time for Kibum to realize that he had been living with Jonghyun for months, three months exactly. And he couldn’t be happier than this. Jonghyun understood him and he understood Jonghyun as well. He smiled more often, he laughed more often, and he let out his thoughts for Jonghyun. He changed Kibum in many different sides. Kibum’s life right now was at the most amazing state.
It also took a long time until Kibum understood what was happening with himself. Everytime he stayed beside Jonghyun, he would feel his heart was beating so ridiculously fast. He blushed more often just from looking Jonghyun smiled. He liked the feeling of Jonghyun’s affection towards him. Everything that Jonghyun did was succeed in making him smile.
Wait.
What did you call it?
Love?
Was love even existed? Didn’t it forget about someone named Kim Kibum already?
“Kibum-ah!”
Kibum woke from his deep thoughts when he felt the gentle touch on his face. Jonghyun was staring at him worriedly and it made Kibum’s stomach flipped in a funny movement. “Mm?”
“Are you okay? You are spacing out just now.”
“I’m fine...”
Jonghyun sighed softly and caressed Kibum’s white cheeks with his palms. Sure, skin ship had already been a usual thing for both of them. Kibum found that Jonghyun liked skin ship very much and who was Kibum to say no to him?
Leaning on the touch on his face, Kibum smiled at him. “It’s nothing... Don’t worry about it...” Hearing that, Jonghyun grinned at him and sat closer to Kibum, legs folded on the bed. They were currently on his room and sitting face to face on top of the fluffy bed.
“Kibum-ah,” called Jonghyun. Kibum blinked at him, waiting for the next words to come. He almost whined at the loss of contact when Jonghyun pulled his hands away from his cheeks and instead holding onto both of his hands. Jonghyun bit down on his own lip, looked hesitate to talk. Kibum smiled at the adorable sight. Jonghyun was indeed his favorite puppy forever.
“What is it?” he asked Jonghyun softly and felt Jonghyun was squeezing his hands.
“There’s something I want to tell you... Aish.”
Kibum frowned. What was it?
“I... I... Shit...”
“Jonghyun?”
“You know... Uhh...”
“Jonghyun, what’s wro—”
“I like you.”
The world seemed to spin around Kibum as the words were repeating themselves in Kibum’s mind. Like? As in like?
“...”
“Kibum? Uhh, it’s... I mean... Listen. I like you, no, more than like... I think I... love you... It’s been a while since we knew each other but I think I’ve liked you since the first time I saw you, so... Yeah, well, I don’t know what should I say but one thing that I’m sure is I... fall in love with you... I—Kibum?”
He stopped talking at the moment his gaze fell onto the sight of Kibum’s crying face. Kibum’s face was blank but the tears were running down his pale cheeks with no mercy. He reached out to wipe the tears away when Kibum spoke up. “Is... Is that true...?”
Jonghyun frowned at the question but nodded. “Of course! Why would I lie to you?”
“D-Does... Does love even exist...? I-I don’t know what love is...”
Jonghyun froze at the sentence. He carefully brought the weeping boy against his chest, hearing the muffled sobbing throughout the room. He rubbed his hand up and down the boy’s back to calm him down.
After seemed like an eternity, Kibum calmed down and pressed his face closer to the warm chest, liking the feeling.
“Kibum-ah, could you hear my heart?”
Kibum nodded at the question. The arms around him were tightening in each second and he was grateful for that. “It’s always like that. Everytime I have you near me, my heart would beat so fast that I think I would die. My stomach would feel like flipping up and down and I feel butterflies in my tummy. Everything about you makes a lot of wonders to me. Do you know that?”
Kibum listened carefully at the sentences and closed his eyes. His grip on Jonghyun’s blouse was tightening and he slowly leaned back from the hug.
Could he do this?
“I... I...”
“Just say it to me, Kibum, it is okay...” said Jonghyun while wiping the remaining tears away from the swollen eyelids. Kibum gulped down his saliva before staring away. “I-I don’t know what to say but... can I say that I feel the same as you feel...?”
A smile quickly formed on Jonghyun’s lips and Kibum was brought into a tight hug. His nose bumped against Jonghyun’s broad shoulder, a soft yelp escaped his lips. “You sure, Kibum-ah? Are you sure you feel the same as me? Oh, you don’t know how happy I am!”
Kibum nodded his head and closed his eyes when he felt the ams around his body were tightening the embrace. Maybe, just maybe, love really existed. Maybe, Jonghyun could be his love. Maybe, Jonghyun could love him and could give him the love that he had been searching for his entire life.
Every single second had become the happiest time for Kibum. It had been three months since their confession and Kibum could say that he was the happiest person all over the world. Jonghyun pampered him with the endless love for every single second, giving him extra care here and there.
It was until one day, Kibum woke up from the soft knocks on the door. He rubbed his eyes with his fists and whimpered at the blinding sun shine.
“Kibum-ah, can I come in?”
“Umm...”
Jonghyun entered the room and grinned at the adorable sight of Kibum wrapped around the thick blanket. He climbed on top of the bed and pressed a soft peck on Kibum’s temple.
“Sleep well?”
“Mmh!” Kibum nodded at him with a sweet smile that it made Jonghyun smiled widely. He reached to organize the messy hair of Kibum and the younger boy seemed to realize the condition of his hair. He grinned cutely and tried to reach up and touch his hair, but stopped by Jonghyun who grabbed his wrists. Kibum stared at him in confuse and he blushed madly when Jonghyun kissed every fingers of his.
“Get ready, okay? I want to take you somewhere.”
“Don’t you have to work?” asked Kibum softly and Jonghyun rubbed his thumbs over the pale cheeks. “No. I take a day off today. Get ready, Bummie.”
Kibum turned red at the nickname, not accustomed yet with the new pet name. He nodded silently and got up from the bed, heading towards the bathroom.
Where would they go today? Kibum giggled at the thought of them going on a date. It must be cute!
It turned out that Jonghyun was taking him to every single shop at the mall, buying everything that he thought would look good on Kibum. The younger boy frowned at the action but said nothing to reject it. It was when he whined silently at how tired his legs were and it made Jonghyun stopped walking. He smiled and ruffled Kibum’s hair softly, earning a soft whine of annoyance from Kibum when his hair was being touched.
They headed to the nearest fast food place and Jonghyun told him to order everything that Kibum liked. They are in silent until Kibum spoke out his mind.
“Jonghyun?”
“Yes, Bummie-ah?”
“Mm... Why are you taking me shopping today? Is there something happen?”
Jonghyun glanced at him and shook his head, telling him, “You would know it later.” Hearing this, Kibum pouted slightly and whined when Jonghyun pinched his cheek. “So cute.”
The blush was coming back to his face and Kibum stuffed his mouth with the burger to hide his shyness. Jonghyun grinned at him and continued staring at his lover while thinking about his next plan for the night.
Night came and Kibum was exhausted. Jonghyun was taking him to every store and shop and he could no more move his legs to another round of walk. He huffed in exhaustion when finally they got into the car, while Jonghyun was talking about the next plan—the last plan—for the day. His ears perked up upon hearing the word ‘dinner’ since he had been so hungry already. Jonghyun grinned at his little lover and drove faster towards the last plan place.
Kibum gaped at the place. It was Han River yet he felt like never coming here before. The place was decorated with shining lamps and flowers and so on, Kibum couldn’t name them. He turned to see Jonghyun and the older man just smiled at him. Jonghyun grabbed his hand and pulled him to the dinner table by the river, another thing that made Kibum gaped in surprise.
“J-Jonghyun, what is this...?”
“Kibummie, happy birthday.”
Birthday? Today was his birthday? How could Kibum not remember it?
“B-Birthday...?”
“Come here.” Jonghyun led him to sit on the chair in front of the round dinner table. The foods were so sparkling on his eyes as Kibum felt his eyes were starting to water. He never got someone celebrated his birthday before and this was the first time. His chest felt so full and his lips were shaking.
“Kibum? You don’t like it?”
Kibum abruptly stood up and threw his body against Jonghyun. He wrapped his arms around the older man tightly, not wanting to let go. He sobbed against Jonghyun’s coat and felt the man was hugging him back.
“T-Thank you... Thank you so much... I... I can’t... I don’t know... Jonghyun, you...”
“Shh. Don’t cry, today is your birthday. Okay?”
He leaned back and wiped the endless tears with his thumbs. Kibum sniffed and giggled softly, showing the happiest look on his face which he never shown to anyone before. Jonghyun froze and he felt his heart thumped so fast against his chest. He cradled the frozen cheeks into his palms and stared into Kibum’s teary eyes.
“Kibum... I love you so much.”
Kibum whimpered at the confession and cried harder. His body was tingling in happiness and he felt like flying. Why did the sentence have a big impact to him?
Jonghyun took a step forward and he leaned closer. His head tilted to left and his eyes fluttered close, lips aiming to Kibum’s slightly parted one. Sensing what was coming; Kibum closed his eyes tightly and shivered when he felt Jonghyun’s lips found his. His first kiss... was for Jonghyun. His first love was Jonghyun. His first birthday was celebrated by Jonghyun. The first happy tears which were spilled from his eyes were because of Jonghyun.
Jonghyun was his everything.
The kiss ended softly and Jonghyun smiled softly at him. He pressed their forehead together and Kibum clung tightly at his coat, blushing from the stare.
“Thank you, Jonghyun... and I love you.”
They shared some little kisses everytime they had a chance. Kibum would blush from the affection yet he seemed couldn’t take off his hands from Jonghyun as well. The older man would like to hug him tightly to his chest and then placed pecks after pecks all over his face. His arms would hold Kibum protectively and then Kibum would snuggle closer to him.
The words ‘I love you’ had become more often to be spilled from their lips. The stealing-kisses games would sometimes turned to be a passionate kissing game, leaving Kibum breathless on the bed and Jonghyun stared down at him with swollen lips.
But, nowadays, Kibum had felt something different from Jonghyun’s soft touches. Was Jonghyun thinking the same as what Kibum thought?
“J-Jjong...” called Kibum right after Jonghyun pulled away from their hot kiss. Jonghyun hummed at him and brushed the bangs away from his temple. Kibum parted his lips but sealed them right away as he couldn’t say it. Jonghyun frowned from the lack of response and pressed his nose against the younger boy’s neck, sniffing the unique fragrance. Kibum shivered from the action and closed his eyes.
“What’s wrong, Bummie?”
“I... Do you... You...”
“What is it?” Jonghyun lifted himself up and propped himself with his elbows beside the younger boy’s head. He pecked his cheek and smiled, urging him to talk.
“Um... Do you... Could it be... Do you want to...”
“Bummie. Say it.”
Kibum shook his head and pulled Jonghyun down for another kiss. He wrapped his arms around the older man’s neck tightly and in a few moments, Jonghyun had ravished him against the bed. The lips were moving so harsh and Kibum shivered from the good feeling. He felt Jonghyun’s hand was rubbing his waist in circular motion and there was poking on his lips. He eagerly welcomed Jonghyun’s tongue into his mouth and the make out session turned Kibum’s body hot.
He whimpered when Jonghyun trapped his tongue with his teeth softly and then rolled it back into his mouth. The hand on his waist had gone under his shirt and tenderly caressing his flat stomach. He gasped for air when Jonghyun traced his lips down his jaw and then nibbling softly on his neck.
His vision was blurred at he stared at the ceiling. Jonghyun continued to shower him with kisses all over his neck and he felt that the time had come.
“J-Jonghyun...”
“Mm?”
“T... T-Take me...”
Jonghyun abruptly stopped all of his actions and stared into the younger’s eyes. Kibum could see the lust in the brown eyes and he panted from the kiss. Jonghyun smiled and caressed his face, asking whether he was serious with his words. Kibum nodded and gasped when Jonghyun brushed his fingers over the hardening buds on his chest.
Their eyes locked and in a blink of an eye, he let himself being ravaged by the beast that Jonghyun had hold in him. Whimpers and soft moans were escaping his swollen lips as his clothes were discarded one by one. He stared up into Jonghyun’s eyes and let Jonghyun did wonders to him.
Soon, Jonghyun was whispering sweet words into his ears as he prepared him. Kibum let out a shriek cry when Jonghyun finally entered him, fingers clutching onto the tanned arms. The soft kisses along his neck helped him to forget the pain and then they moved in sync, bodies tangled together in an intimate way.
When he opened his eyes, he saw Jonghyun’s face was contorted with pleasure and Kibum smiled. He reached up to touch the sweaty face of his lover and it made Jonghyun stared at him, asking him whether he was okay. Kibum nodded his head and hugged Jonghyun tightly against his body, whispering: I love you, Jonghyun.
Jonghyun chuckled softly as his action and brought his body even closer, pressing their bare bodies together. He began to move again and Kibum whimpered from the pleasure. Never had he felt so much pleasure and love in his life.
“I love you...”
No matter how Kibum was happy at that time, every happiness wouldn’t last long.
It had been a while since their last time being intimate and Kibum knew that Jonghyun had been very tired from over working these few days. He wanted to make a special dinner for Jonghyun and maybe they could continue their kisses onto the bed and made love until morning came. But every single plan that he had in his mind was dropped the moment he heard some maids were talking.
“I don’t like that kid.”
“Hey, don’t talk like that. Master Jonghyun loves him.”
“I don’t think Master loves him that way. Master Jonghyun is a kind man and he can’t let a poor orphan kid like him suffers. Do you remember that Master Jonghyun had brought a poor kid a few years ago and let that kid stayed here for a while?”
“Yeah, I remember. But I think this is different.”
“Hey! Do you think Master would want a filth kid like him? Just by looking at him makes me sick.”
Kibum ran away from the kitchen and entered the bedroom that he shared with Jonghyun. He just realized it now. There was no way someone as rich and kind like Jonghyun would ignore a poor kid like him. There was no feeling based on their relationship. He was just a poor, filth, orphan kid who happened to be rescued by the rich and kid Kim Jonghyun.
He should have known it. Life wasn’t as pretty as fairytale.
There was no love between them. Maybe Kibum did feel love towards Jonghyun but he didn’t realize that maybe this was just a temporary phase for Jonghyun. Maybe when he found a pretty woman who was at the same level as him, a woman who could give him children, he would kick Kibum out from his house.
Kibum should have known it from the very beginning.
There was no such thing called love in this world.
He shivered as the cold night wind blew. His lips were pale from the cold and he sniffed, trying to stop his tears. His heart felt so much pain. Maybe this was why he couldn’t let himself fall in love with someone. Because he knew that in the end, he would feel pain like this.
Kibum tried to seek for a haven since the sky roared a few times, telling him that it was going to rain. Kibum clutched the thin shirt around his body and he entered the dark alley, the place where he belonged to.
The entire time with Jonghyun was such a beautiful dream and Kibum felt like he didn’t want to wake up. But he knew that the dream wouldn’t last too long and he better woke himself up before it was too late.
Another tear dropped from his eye and Kibum clutched his chest. Why was falling in love hurting him so much?
Jonghyun went frantic. The moment he stepped into his house, he was greeted by the awkward silence. Something was wrong.
The bedroom was empty, as well as the kitchen. He met the maids who were looking very guilty. When he demanded them to say what happened with a angry glare, both of the maids were apologizing at him, saying that they were talking bad things about their Master’s lover and then they just realized that Kibum was behind the door when they heard footsteps.
Jonghyun growled at them and would like to deal with them later. His first priority was Kibum and he didn’t know where the boy went. He grabbed extra coat since he realized that it was going to rain and drove his car in high speed.
He remembered that the maids were saying that they were talking about how scrubby Kibum’s presence in the house. There was no way he would let Kibum think that way because for him, Kibum was his life.
“Bummie, where are you...?”
He drove passed some dark alleys yet he couldn’t find the boy. He grew worried. He knew that Kibum couldn’t handle cold temperature like this and he was easily fell sick.
His car was passing a certain dark place when he heard a piercing scream which he knew really well.
“Kibum...”
He stopped the car abruptly and ran out from the car, almost stumbling on his way. He ran towards the dark alley and found a man was hovering on top of his Kibum. Jonghyun went rage. He could hear the screams were getting louder and he walked over there, pulling the filth man from his lover and threw a hard punch across the face.
He cradled his weeping lover into his arms, only to feel that Kibum was having fever. The boy was unconscious already and Jonghyun gritted his teeth. He practically ran back to his car and hugged the boy close to his chest, giving him his body warmth.
The moment Kibum opened his eyes; he was greeted by a pair of eyes that he loved so much. Did he die already? Was this heaven?
“Bummie! Oh, thanks God!”
This was real?
“Kibum, why are you running away?! Don’t you know how worried I was?!”
Kibum flinched at the raised voice and trembled. He cried again and Jonghyun quickly realized his fault.
“Oh, no, no! Don’t cry! I didn’t mean to shout at you! Kibummie, oh...”
Jonghyun tried to hug him but Kibum backed away. “N-No...”
“Kibum, what’s wrong? Is it about what those maids were saying? You know that’s not true, Kibum!”
“I’m filth...”
Jonghyun embraced the boy close to him, despite Kibum’s struggles. He ignored the ‘let me go’ and placed pecks after pecks on the boy’s head. He could feel Kibum’s shaking form as he cried again.
“Kibum... I love you. Don’t even doubt that. You don’t need to hear what people say, you have to trust me.”
“B-But—”
“There’s no ‘but’, Bummie-ah. I love you and you love me. That’s all that matters. You are my life, my everything, even more important than my own self. So, please... Don’t leave me again...”
By the time he finished his sentence, he felt himself was weeping hardly. The choked sobs were clearly heard against Kibum’s ear. He never saw Jonghyun cried before and this was the first time.
“Jjong...”
“Please, Kibum. I need you. I love you so much.”
Kibum trembled as another urge to cry came again. He cried loudly and hugged the older man tightly, burying his face on the warm chest. Both of them were crying while embracing each other, not wanting to let go anymore.
“Remember this, Kibum,” started Jonghyun when they were starting to calm from crying, “you are my only one. No one else. I love you yesterday, I love you now, and I will still love you until the moment I die.”
Kibum nodded silently and snuggled more to the warm chest of his lover. There was no more that he would doubt.
He knew now that love really did exist. He just hadn’t found it before and now he found his love and it was Jonghyun.
A/N: Jongkey oneshot! Anyone like Jongkey here? Hihi, comment! :D
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2013-11-28 03:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-12-09 08:00 am (UTC)I'm really thankful! :D
no subject
Date: 2013-12-13 10:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-01-15 07:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-12-13 07:39 pm (UTC)That was super romantic let me think i should have boyfriend LOL
Anyway thank you :-P
no subject
Date: 2014-01-15 07:26 am (UTC)Thanks for reading! <3