Love Me (I Do) Chap. 12

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Title: Love Me (I Do)

Pairing: Kaisoo (Fem!Kyungsoo)

Genre: Genderbender, Romance, Smut, Fluff, Angst

Length: Series

Summary: Being in an unrequited love is something everyone has experienced in their life. Stealing glances from afar, smiling to yourself just because your crush glances back at you. Wanting to get into the seat next to them. Pouting when they don’t see you. Do Kyungsoo has experienced it all.



















 
Chapter 12



Jongin holds onto the small note of the address of where his new house would be. His mother didn’t tell him anything other than the fact that he needed to pack his things. With jumbled of thoughts in his mind, Jongin brings most of his things and now he is heading towards the said address.

The house is pretty, but he doesn’t understand the need of him living here alone. What did his mother mean with being responsible? And why would she bring Kyungsoo up in this?

There is a car parked in front of the car and Jongin thinks it might be the neighbor’s so he doesn’t really pay it any mind.

As he unlocks the door with his key, he could hear faint sounds of people talking and laughing, but he couldn’t understand where it comes from.







“Mom?”

Jongin hears the soft voice saying that. He knows that voice but he couldn’t remember where he had heard it. He pads into the house, dragging his things with him. There are footsteps coming closer, without any thought, he lifts his head up, only to find,

“Kyungsoo?” He calls softly, almost thinking that he is dreaming.

But no. It’s really Kyungsoo standing there, with oversized shirt and soft looking socks. She looks glowing and ethereal.

But he sees Baekhyun, too, and the other girl stands up from the couch to march towards him.

“You are the bastard?! You are the bastard who impregnated my baby?! I’m so going to kill you!” She shrieks and Kyungsoo takes a hold of her friend’s arm to hold her back.

Jongin blinks questioningly. He doesn’t understand anything.

What bastard? Impregnated? What is going on here?

“Chanyeol, please hold her back!” Kyungsoo whimpers and the other male, whom Jongin has just seen, stands up and holds Baekhyun back.

“Jongin, c-come in… and Chanyeol, can you guys go for a while? I will call you later!” Kyungsoo says and Jongin watches at the tall Chanyeol guy drags the furious looking Baekhyun away, out of the house, but not before landing one particular slap over Jongin’s head.

As soon as the door is closed, silence greets them and it takes Jongin a moment to stare at Kyungsoo standing in front of him.

“Where have you been?” Jongin asks her, who flinches at his sudden question. It’s cute.

Kyungsoo fiddles with her oversized shirt and Jongin wants nothing other than to scoop her up and smothers her with kisses. Wait, he does think that. He admits it now.

“I… I have been at some places,” she mutters lowly, bending her head down.

Jongin walks closer to her, holding onto her hand and leading her to the couch. Oh gosh. He can do this, right? He misses her so much.

Kyungsoo keeps her mouth shut.

“What are you doing here?” He asks.

Kyungsoo mumbles, “I live here…”

“Wait, what? But I also live here –”

Jongin jolts up to call for his mother as realization hits him. Kyungsoo stays silent on her seat, rubbing her stomach out of habit. Jongin talks into his phone, seemingly getting into a quick argument with his mother before he glances at her. As he finds her rubbing her belly, Jongin stutters a reply to his mother and hangs up almost immediately.

“K-Kyungsoo, you are… p-pregnant?” He whispers breathlessly, still unable to what he finds, but seeing Kyungsoo rubbing her stomach and looking all swollen like that, makes Jongin realizes that it’s happening for real. And he doesn’t know what to feel.

The girl glances away, forgetting that he still doesn’t know and she can’t even deny it again. The fact is clear right in front of his very eyes. She ends up giving a small nod and Jongin falls back onto the opposite couch, holding a hand over his chest.

“S-Shit.” He blinks, keeping his eyes onto the girl across him. He doesn’t have to think that much because he instantly realizes that the child must be his. Kyungsoo is a good girl, she wouldn’t go sleep around, and that means the only one who did this to her is no other than Jongin himself.

Is this what his mother meant with taking the responsibility? Because he needs to take care of Kyungsoo who is pregnant with his baby?

“Oh fuck.” He breathes, realization dawns on him. He brings both his hands to his head, pulling onto his hair. It’s unbelievable, but surprisingly he doesn’t hate the idea.

Kyungsoo looks away, chewing on her lip. “I’m sorry.” She whispers and Jongin feels a pang of guilt in his chest. It was him who should be sorry but she is the one apologizing here.

“No, Kyungsoo, it’s… it’s my fault. I’m sorry.” He murmurs lowly, unable to look at the girl because of the guilt he is feeling. He really needs to say sorry to Kyungsoo and to tell her that she means a lot to him and that he… loves her.

There. It’s time for Jongin to act like an adult he really is. No more running away and hiding.

Kyungsoo looks up in surprise, not expecting him to apologize. The surprise look on her face is so cute that Jongin needs to hold back himself from smiling. Anything she does is so cute though.

“I… Let’s tell each other about what happened. Is that… okay?” Jongin asks slowly, not wanting to scare the girl away with his curiosity.

Kyungsoo looks a bit hesitated but she nods her head. Jongin moves to sit beside her on the same couch and he coughs to clear the awkward tension.

“So… what happened?” He croaks out, internally cursing himself for being so obvious.

She fiddles with her fingers and Jongin thinks about how much he wants to hold onto her hands. Jongin grips onto the couch to hold back.

“I… I found out about this,” Kyungsoo says softly, holding a hand over her bulging tummy, “and my parents didn’t… like it, so they, um, they kicked me home.”

Jongin takes a sharp intake of breathe. It was his fault. Fuck, everything was his fault. He ruins this girl’s life. And he has the nerve to act like a jerk. Fuck, he screws up. Jongin grunts lowly before he bravely reaches for her hand. “I’m sorry.”

Kyungsoo shakes her head. “No, it’s not only your fault. It’s partly mine, too. We were not… careful.” She smiles weakly.

Oh, how Jongin wants to kiss her lips.

Jongin clears his throat to stop his brain from thinking about the things he wants to do to her. “A-And you were gone to live somewhere? Why couldn’t I find you in college?”

Kyungso bends her head down, fiddling with her fingers. “I lived at some places, um, not really good but at least I could sleep. Oh, and I moved to night classes.”

Jongin frowns.

“I can’t imagine you living at some place. Stay here from now on. My mom bought this for you —for us— so you can just relax and take care of your—I mean, our child.” Jongin says, giving her hand a squeeze. He needs to show her that he will take responsibility. She is not alone in this. He will help her, because most of this thing is caused by him. He is such a jerk.

Kyungsoo looks up in shock as he mentions the possession over the child. It simply tells her that he wants to take part in this. She blames it on the hormones because a sob escapes her mouth without she realizes.

Jongin panics, thinking that he might have said something wrong or maybe she feels in pain somewhere.

“W-What happened? Do you need s-something? Should I call mom or –”

“Can you,” Kyungsoo grips onto his shirt, “can you h-hug me for a while?” She looks up with her teary and round eyes and Jongin feels his self crumbling down. He can’t deny it anymore. Oh my God. He loves her. He loves Kyungsoo.

“Y-Yes.” He mutters before pulling the girl into his arms. Kyungsoo snuggles into his chest and Jongin closes his eyes to relish in the feeling of holding onto her after so long. Kyungsoo is sound and safe now in his arms and he wants nothing else.

“I-I’m sorry it’s the h-hormones,” Kyungsoo chokes, her voice is muffled against his shirt and Jongin feels a smile curls on his mouth. She is so cute. He can’t help himself and tightens his hold around her.

“It’s okay.”

Kyungsoo grips onto his shirt (and he admits that move is so cute) while sniffling softly. He says nothing to let her has her time to calm down.

“Kyungsoo?” He calls softly. She nods into his chest. Oh God, she is like a little kitten.

“Why didn’t you… tell me about this?”

She freezes for a second before she shakes her head. “I’m afraid you wouldn’t like it.”

Jongin sighs. Of course, if she told him before, he wouldn’t like it. But now that he thinks about how much Kyungsoo had suffered because of him, he feels so guilty. If only he could turn back the time, he would ask her to be his from the very beginning.

“I’m… I’m not going to leave you, Soo. I will stay here with you.”

Kyungsoo leans back from his chest, looking up with her innocent eyes and Jongin shudders because she is so beautiful. He brings a brave hand up to wipe the dried tears away.

“I will be responsible and… and make it up for you. Everything, just tell me everything that you want me to do, I will do it for you.”

It’s time for him to make it right. If Kyungsoo will allow him to.

Kyungsoo stares at him, her teeth come out to worry over her lip, and damn it, how much Jongin wants to kiss her?

“I… I want…” She whispers softly. Jongin leans down to hear it better.

“Yes? What is it that you want?”

She glances away, a faint blush on her cheeks. “I want… pizza.”

Jongin smiles in amusement, his hand carding through her soft hair. “One pizza is coming for you.”

As he makes up a call to order, Kyungsoo cuddles in the couch. Jongin keeps his eyes trained on her to make sure that she is comfortable. Kyungsoo says nothing, just yawning softly and rubbing her stomach again.

Jongin sits back onto the couch, staring at her. “Your pizza will be ready in a while.”

Kyungsoo nods her head.

“Um, Soo? Do you want me to hug you again?”

Okay, that is what he wants but maybe Kyungsoo would want the same. He wants to keep touching her (innocently, mind you) and to keep her safe in his arms.

Surprisingly, Kyungsoo nods. “Yes, please.” She whispers, crawling closer to him.

Jongin holds his breath when Kyungsoo leans towards him, snuggling into his neck. He can feel her warm breath hitting his skin and oh my God, he loves this. He loves having Kyungsoo in his arms, watching the soft flutters of her eyelashes on her cheeks, feeling her warmth on his skin.

His gaze falls down onto her stomach. And he wants to do something.

“Kyungsoo, can I… can I touch it?” He asks carefully. She opens her eyes and surprisingly, she sends him a small smile. Jongin gulps and lifts his hand up, moving closer to touch the belly carefully. Kyungsoo smiles and grabs onto his hand before placing it comfortable on top of her stomach.

Jongin watches in awe. In there is his child. His very own child. He is a father.

“How far along… are you?”

“Five months.” Kyungsoo whispers as she keeps her eyes on his awed face.

Jongin shudders in amazement as he rubs the belly and Kyungsoo smiles in satisfaction. She cuddles into his neck, putting her hand on top of his as they rub her stomach together.

This is so beautiful. Jongin can’t take his eyes away from the swollen belly. To know that it’s his child in there and the mother is Kyungsoo, he can’t believe how lucky he is and how such a jerk he was.

“I’m sorry again.” He whispers. Kyungsoo says nothing but she gives his hand a gentle squeeze.

The bell is ringing and Jongin reluctantly releases her for a while to get the pizza. The moment he is back with the box of pizza in his hand, Kyungsoo’s eyes light up and she sits up straight.

“Eat up to your heart content.” Jongin says, opening the box for her and she nods her head happily.

Jongin watches from the side as she nips onto the slice, her round eyes glancing here and there and the satisfied humming coming from her mouth is enough to tell him that she is happy. Kyungsoo is happy right at the moment.

“Is there anything else that you want right now?” Jongin asks hesitantly after wiping her fingers clean with the wet wipes.

Kyungsoo bats her eyelashes as she thinks. She looks up at him, her teeth worrying her lip again and Jongin feels like going crazy because he doesn’t know for how long he could hold himself back. One step at a time; he had so many mistakes to make it up to Kyungsoo.

“Another hug…?” She squeaks softly.

Jongin nods, gently pulling her to settle comfortable in his embrace. Kyungsoo sighs, cuddling into his shoulder and it takes no longer than ten minutes before her breathing evens out and she ends up falling asleep.

He watches her sleeping face. She is so cute. She looks like a kid when she is asleep, even though she is bearing a child in her. Jongin feels so bad and he vows to himself that he will do anything to make it right. He will make Kyungsoo trust him again before he would finally ask her to be officially his. He needs to make everything right.











Jongin doesn’t know when he falls asleep as well, but he is woken up by the sound of door unlocking. His mother comes into the house, holding onto bags of groceries. Jongin stares at her and the woman finds the two on the couch.

He waits for any word from her but the woman gives him a warm smile before she goes to the kitchen to put the groceries down. She comes out to join them in the living room and she gets down onto her knees. Jongin watches his mother caressing the sleeping girl’s head and Kyungsoo shifts in his arms for a second before going back to sleep again.

“Mom,” Jongin whispers softly.

His mother glances at him and reaches forward to ruffle his hair.

“Make it right, Jongin. I don’t want you to regret it.”

Jongin nods his head and his mother pats his head softly. “Wake her up in thirty mre minutes, okay?” She says before she goes into the kitchen to start the dinner.

Kyungsoo snuggles into his shoulder to seek for more warmth and Jongin makes sure to tighten his hold around her.









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A/N: Jongin's not that bad, people! Hehe, three more chapters left!
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