Hello Chap. 14
Jan. 20th, 2017 04:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Title: Hello
Pairing: Jongkey
Genre: Romance, Fluff, Smut, Drama, Semi-Angst
Length: Series
Summary: They were young when it all happened; the young love, the separation, the sadness, the fake hurting words. They are matured now when it all happens; the second meeting, the hesitation, the fear of getting hurt, and… the bit of remaining love inside.
He misses Kibum. He misses him so much. It has been a very long time since they met. He doesn’t know how Kibum is doing nowadays. It’s not that Jonghyun doesn’t want to go and see him; it’s just at the fact that he doesn’t have the right to see him.
Kibum has moved on. That’s what he thinks.
After seeing Kibum with Lee Jinki, Jonghyun finally feels the same feeling of breaking to the point where he doesn’t want to do anything, just like what he felt a few years back then.
Why would he go to Kibum’s place that night? What would he say if he even managed to meet him? There was nothing left to say.
But maybe that was his destiny to watch Kibum being brought into someone else’s embrace, getting tightly hugged by someone else that was not him. Jonghyun had lost his chances multiple of times. It was not his place to get hurt.
It hurt, though. It still hurts now.
Jonghyun wonders, as he leans back onto his couch and stares up onto the ceiling, what he planned to do even if he managed to talk to Kibum at that night? Just to say hello? Or to beg Kibum to take him back? Or just to say goodbye?
He waited for the whole three hours at that night. He waited inside his car, practicing on what he should say when he was to finally face to face with Kibum.
A car stopped just in front the building and Kibum got down from it. Jonghyun took a deep breath to calm himself before he got out of his car.
Kibum seemed to be having a conversation with someone and with a proper look, Jonghyun was kind of surprised to find out that it was Lee Jinki. The two talked for a moment before Lee Jinki had Kibum wrapped in his arms.
Jonghyun froze as his heart skipped a beat.
Ah, so this was how they would end.
A chuckle left his mouth and Jonghyun felt his eyes were blurred with unshed tears.
Kibum looked up at him, seemingly surprised and not expecting to find him there. Jonghyun put on his best face, giving Kibum a smile to say that “you have done well, you have moved on, I hope you have your happiness, forgive me, and forget me” before he quickly got into his car before anyone could see his tears.
Jonghyun drove his car to nowhere, he couldn’t even care. He just needed to get away from the place, from the people that could hurt his heart like this.
A strained sob escaped his lips and he drives his car to the side road, unable to drive anymore.
Drop by drop of tears rolled down his cheeks, falling down onto his trousers. The scene of Kibum with someone else kept repeating in his head, like a broken tape.
People said, you couldn’t forget your first love.
Jonghyun chuckled bitterly as he finally understood the meaning. You couldn’t forget your first love so that you would be haunted by it for the rest of his life.
Why should he even meet Kibum from those years ago if they wouldn’t end up together? Was it just to torture his heart? Was it just to play with his feeling? Was it his destiny to suffer just because of his love for the same person? He got two chances to have the very same person, but he failed in both.
Kibum was… never his to have.
Jonghyun choked on his tears, his head leaning against the steering wheel. A hand held his chest because it hurt; it hurt so much to know that he had failed in gaining his happiness. He didn’t want anything else, he just wanted Kibum. His whole life was controlled and ruled by people around him; just this one, just for this one, couldn’t he follow what he wanted the most?
No; the voice inside of his head said. You have no right to choose. It said again.
And now with him sitting alone in his apartment, eyes blank and heart aching, Jonghyun wonders what will be the end of his life story. Could he finally move on and have his own happiness? Even though it’s not what he wants? Will he be freed of this suffer and gain his own happy ending just like everyone else?
Maybe it’s time… to stop trying.
He could get hurt less.
Grabbing his phone, Jonghyun dials the numbers that are oddly familiar to him nowadays.
“Hey, Taemin. Up for some drinks?”
“So, you are telling me you saw your ex with someone else and now you gave up? I thought you are better than this.” Taemin huffs, gulping down his drink in one shot.
Jonghyun sends him a weak glare. “It’s not even my choice. I can’t do anything about it. Try to be in my shoes and you would understand.”
Taemin shrugs. “I don’t want to suffer like you. You don’t look good, by the way. Try erasing that frown off your face.”
“I don’t care. It’s not like everyone pays attention to me.”
“People pay attention to you! You are the Chief Executive Officer of Kim Media Group! Everyone wants a piece of you; except me, of course. You are not my type, sorry not sorry.”
Jonghyun huffs, nudging the other male away. With a swift move, he pours another drink
into his glass and takes a quick shot from it. Taemin watches him silently.
“You could stop drinking, you know. It’s your fourth bottle already.” He reprimands.
“Why do you care? You don’t want a piece of me, you said,” Jonghyun grumbles, easily irritated now that he is half drunk.
Taemin snorts in disbelief. “You are such a kid! Can’t you take a joke?”
“So, you are joking? You do want a piece of me?”
“I can’t believe you,” Taemin huffs tiredly, “Look. Whatever you are feeling right now… don’t blame everyone about it. I believe in destiny, Jonghyun, and I believe that you will end up happy no matter what. Whether you will be happy with that ex of yours or someone else, I don’t know, but you will. Trust me.”
Jonghyun stares silently at him, before he breaks into a small smile. “You are a brat. Why are you talking about destiny and all that jazz?”
Taemin groans. “Whatever!”
Waking up with pounding head is not the sensation that Jonghyun enjoys, but he can’t blame anyone about it. He drank his ass off last night and managed to get home with Taemin’s help. He remembers the glare from Taemin as he was dumped onto his couch.
“Remind me to never go for a drink with you again.” Taemin had said before he left his apartment.
Jonghyun grunts, turning around on his couch, while trying to slowly open his eyes. The world is shining so brightly by now and with instinct, he suspects that it’s already six.
Gosh, he doesn’t want to go to work. He really wants to just laze around and nurse his hangover with warm soup or something. He is not ready to face the stacks of papers again. Damn, just with the mere thought of it makes his head hurts even more.
Giving up, he sits up straight and glances all over his spacious apartment. He doesn’t really remember who designed the interior but he does know that he doesn’t really spend his time here. Most of time is spent in the office, making more money, or he spent it with Kibum in his place.
Kibum. Heh, just a mere thought of his name makes Jonghyun chuckles bitterly. He doesn’t have the right to even think about the male. He has lost everything.
With a sigh, Jonghyun stands up and makes his way to the bathroom. He needs a very cold shower to cure his headache.
As soon as he steps into his office, his secretary begins to recite his schedule for the day and points to the high stacks of documents on top of his desk. Jonghyun internally groans. He needs a fucking break, damn it. It seems like he needs another round of drink.
Are you alive? Taemin’s message comes into his phone.
Barely. What’s up?
You didn’t seem like you would make it alive last night.
Aw, are you worried about me?
In your dreams. I just don’t want to be accused of murder case.
Shitty brat, Jonghyun chuckles. He finds a very good friend in Taemin. At first he found him very annoying and irritating, but now Jonghyun feels like Taemin is the only one who could understand him the most. Maybe because the both of them are forced into the same situation.
Fuck you.
No, thank you. You are not my type.
Jonghyun ignores the last text message and he goes to work with his papers. The faster he finishes everything will be good, so he could down himself in drinks again. It’s like his own consolation.
Halfway through the day, Jonghyun hears the intercom buzzing.
“Sir, My. Choi is here to see you.”
Jonghyun sighs. Expect Minho and his overly caring side. He doesn’t have the time to deal with the pity in his friend’s eyes.
“Scheduled him for another meeting. I’m busy now.”
It’s not that he refuses his friend’s affection, but he really doesn’t need to listen to Minho spilling about impossible things between him and his past.
It takes a moment before he hears the sounds of Minho’s footsteps going away. The last thing he needs is to have Minho breaking into his office.
His lunch is being delivered by his secretary into his office. He barely touches it, only stealing a few bites of it while he keeps doing his work. If he is lucky, he could leave his office in no less than two hours. Maybe Taemin would be kind enough to be his drink buddy again.
Jonghyun puts the newly signed documents onto the other side of his desk, reaching for another one, when his phone beeps from a new text message.
What is it now that Taemin wants? That kid just loves having all the attention on him—
Hey. How are you?
Jonghyun drops his phone as if it is burnt with fire. Is he dreaming or Kibum is really sending him a text?
A very big part in him wants to reply to the message and tells him that he is not okay, he is not alright, he is not doing well, he is not eating his lunch, so you better come here and shove the food down his throat to make him better. But the conscience part in his head, the one that is stronger to control him now, is telling him to ignore the text, because by doing that, he could avoid getting hurt again.
Jonghyun gulps and glances away, reaching for his papers to distract himself.
Why would Kibum send him a text? Does he want to be friends with him? Only friends and nothing more, right, because he is going out with Lee Jinki?
The door to his office is opened and Jonghyun flinches in surprise.
“Father.” He breathes out in shock, not expecting to see his father standing there and staring straight at him.
Jonghyun stands up from his seat and walks towards the couch, where his father has already taken a seat on. The old man gives him a hard stare.
“I heard that you get quite close with Taemin.”
Jonghyun bends his head down and gives a small nod as an answer. It’s not like he is not expecting this. His father is very concerned about everything that is involving Taemin and Lee Construction.
“Very good. I know you will like him.” His father says, a faint tone of proud is visible in his voice. Jonghyun internally winces at that. Is he only proud of him because he is close with the son of the powerful male who owns a business that is making a deal with this company? A marriage deal?
“Yes, Father.”
“Do you like Taemin? He is a nice kid.”
“He is… good. Surprisingly a good person.” Jonghyun answers truthfully as he remembers the words from Taemin last night that consoled his broken heart. He is a very, very good friend.
“Excellent. Now I don’t have to hold back the engagement.”
Jonghyun snaps his head up to look at his father.
“What?”
“The engagement will be announced in a week. Get ready. Make yourself presentable in front of the public.”
“But, Father, you said it will be announced next month?” Jonghyun is in the crisis of panic because he doesn’t expect himself to be tied down with a knot with someone else this fast.
“Public will start to question about the closeness between you and him. It will be beneficial for us to announce the engagement sooner. I want you to keep being on his good side. This is an important deal for us. Don’t disappoint me.”
Jonghyun slumps back to the couch, feeling his energy left him. His father has just said that he will be engaged to Taemin in less than a week and that this marriage is clearly only a business deal.
Isn’t it… nice? Jonghyun could be laughing his ass off if his father is not here.
Such a nice life he has here.
“Do you understand, Jonghyun? Do not fail this.”
“I understand, Father.”
The man stands up and walks away out of his office, the door is closing behind his back. Jonghyun sits silently on the couch. His phone rings and he goes to see the caller. Upon seeing it from Taemin, he understands that the other male has already known about this plan, too.
“Hey. Are you up for another drink?” Taemin’s voice asks from the other line, seemingly happy and everything, but Jonghyun knows it’s fake. This sudden news is not only affecting his happiness, but Taemin’s, too.
“Yeah, sure.”
He could use some drinks with Taemin to ‘celebrate’ their engagement.
As Jonghyun leaves his office with his phone in his pocket, he misses the text message of,
I’m sorry. Can we talk?
A/N: Six chapters left until the ending! I personally like this chapter. How about you? ^^
Thanks for reading! Comments will be very much appreciated and will make me very happy! Hehe~
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Date: 2017-01-20 10:01 pm (UTC)i've just read this chapter at 0am in Vietnam, bonus the latest song of 2NE1, Goodbye and everything is done, done and done /cry/
i feel poor for Jonghyun so much, many previous chapters we can feel sympathy for Kibum, but after this, really really feel sad for Jonghyun.
and though i've never said this before, but i like the craziness in love between Jonghyun and Kibum in this fanfic, and JH's father, aigoo, sometimes I really wanna kill him.
thanks so much for updating this, i've waited for too long a time TT^TT
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Date: 2017-02-01 10:05 am (UTC)i'm glad you understand what i'm trying to describe in this chapter; jonghyun's pain. and you also get the crazy love i'm describing! oh you my little girl come here let me hug you <33
anyway, a new chapter is up!
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Date: 2017-02-01 12:43 pm (UTC)here i am you can hug me /hehe/ :)))))))
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Date: 2017-02-10 09:35 am (UTC)