Ardor Chap. 3

[kumo_is_kumo]

Title: Ardor

Pairing: Kaisoo, implied!Chanbaek

Genre: Soul mate!AU, Romance, Fluff, Angst, Smut

Length: Series

Summary: People are going to meet their soul mate at the age of twenty. Kyungsoo thinks he has lost his soul mate even from the beginning. Jongin thinks he has found his soul mate, but turns out he has not. Weird things happen and chemistry strikes before they meet their true soul mate.













Poster by: ░ spearmint ░ graphic shop









Chapter 3



Jongin feels bad. Like, really, really bad.

He doesn’t know what he feels bad for, but he still thinks that he feels bad for Baekhyun.

They have been going out together and they have thought that they would be soul mates, but fate says different. They are not meant for each other. Maybe that is why Jongin feels bad, because he thinks he still longs for Baekhyun and it’s a pity that they don’t end up together.

But then again. The voice in his head repeatedly says that: no, you don’t feel bad because of that. You are feeling bad because of another thing, the only thing you choose to ignore for such a long time.

He sighs and rubs his face with his palm, feeling so depressed for having such voices in his mind. He is still mourning over the fact that Baekhyun now seems to be avoiding him.

What should he do now? Give up? Or try to pursue him and break against what fate has said? What should he-

Wait.

What is that sound?











A group of girls walk from across the building, laughing and seemingly making fun of whatever they have just seen.

There is this pull, this very strong pull and for once, Jongin follows what fate has prepared for him.

As he crosses into the other building, he sees a shoe. Then a leg. Then he realizes that it is someone, curling behind the deepest part of the wall and... sobbing.

“Kyungsoo?” He finds his mouth spills the name he doesn’t even have the time to think about. It is like his body knows what it should do.

“Is that you?” He calls out again, throat clogged with something foreign.

The curled person looks up and Jongin feels such indescribable pain pierces through his chest.

Why, oh why as he sees those unshed tears brimming in Kyungsoo’s eyes, he feels so deeply in pain?

“Kyungsoo? What’s wrong?” He blurts out again.

Kyungsoo looks at him with a blank stare for a few seconds before he glances away to break their eye contact. Jongin hears the gears in his brain do their calculating.

“Nothing. I-I have to go.” Kyungsoo croaks out, before he stumbles on his legs to quickly stand up and bolt away from him.

The word of ‘wait’ is on the tip of Jongin’s tongue yet he holds himself back from saying it. Kyungsoo doesn’t even want to tell him what’s bothering him, so why should he care? It is clearly not his business.











Kyungsoo stumbles into his poor and small living place, hand clasping over his chest as he hyperventilates to bring back oxygen into his lungs.

He has just met Jongin. He misses him so much. He wants to smile to him and ask how his day is. He wants to hold his hand and tell him that however the day he is having, he will still be so proud of him. He wants to have Jongin smile back at him and say that he is proud at him too.

Kyungsoo chokes for breathe, eyes watering as he slumps down onto the floor. He doesn’t even know he has this much tears to spill.

Does he even deserve to live?











“Kyungsoo, wait!”

Baekhyun’s soft voice is calling for him and he just wants a hole to open up so it could swallow him. He feels so bad for ignoring Baekhyun like this but what should he do? It’s not like he has any choice in the first place.

“Kyungsoo-yah, please.” Baekhyun has come up to him and grips onto his wrist. See, even his hold is so gentle and lovely. Kyungsoo feels so bad for dirtying Baekhyun’s pretty hand with his filth.

“I-I need to go to class.” He mutters, head bent down and gaze onto his shoes.

Baekhyun steps closer to him.

“We need to talk about Jongin.”

Oh God. The topic is still about it. Kyungsoo fidgets nervously.

“W-What is there to talk about?” He can’t avoid him anymore so better finish this quickly.

“About what you said a few days ago. What do you mean with that?” Baekhyun asks him softly, as if he is talking to a little kid. Kyungsoo feels so small beside him.

“I mean that… t-that you can be with… him.”

“Kyungsoo,” Baekhyun sighs.

“You are a better partner for him. I’m just… just no one.” Kyungsoo says, pulling his wrist out of Baekhyun’s grip.

“His soul mate is you, Kyungsoo. Not me.” Baekhyun says sternly.

Kyungsoo takes a step back. “I-I have to go.”

“Kyu –”

He runs away. Again.











Baekhyun watches as Kyungsoo runs away from him. He can’t understand any other way to tell Kyungsoo that he is wrong.

There is a tap on his shoulder and Baekhyun spins around. It’s Jongin, with a smile on his face.

“Hey, Baek! What’s wrong? What are you doing here alone?”

Baekhyun grits his teeth.

“Jongin, have you talked to Kyungsoo?”

“…w-what’s for?”

Baekhyun gasps in disbelief. “You are asking me what’s for? He is your soul mate!”

Jongin glances away. “But the one I like is you –”

“But I’m not your soul mate! He is!” Baekhyun jabs a finger on his chest. Jongin stumbles back, a bit surprised to see the gentle and cute Baekhyun being so angry.

“Baekhyun –”

“I don’t want to ruin the written destiny, Jongin. Sure, I like you, too, but it’s not our choice to be together. Your destined soul mate is Kyungsoo and not me. I’m going to wait for my destined soul mate and I’m sure… I will love them no matter what. Open your eyes, Jongin. The world doesn’t revolve around you.”

Baekhyun leaves him alone to ponder over what has just happened.

Does he really… go against destiny?











Kyungsoo stops by the news bulletin and reads through the announcement.

Peeking into his pants pocket, he can’t find any money left and as he rummages through his worn-out wallet, there are only a few bills. He really can’t afford the living expenses for the rest of the week.

Should he… consider it? Kyungsoo stares at the announcement. The offer is so tempting and it will also give him more credits.

With a dejected sigh, Kyungsoo walks back home and if he is lucky, he could find the remaining instant noodles.











Jongin is pondering over what Baekhyun has told him yesterday. Is he really too blinded by his dream of having the perfect life, with a perfect spouse? Does he really ignore the written destiny for him just because he wants it all?

What’s the reason he is so hung upon Baekhyun?

Baekhyun is… pretty and kind and gentle and lovely and he fits the role in Jongin’s dream of perfection.

What’s the reason he is ignoring Kyungsoo?

…nothing.

He doesn’t know why he ignores Kyungsoo. It’s not like he is doing it on purpose. He just… doesn’t know the reason.

Yeah.

What’s so bad about Kyungsoo?

Nothing, though. He is kind and he helps Jongin a lot. He is always there for him whenever he needs some help and Jongin starts to think that maybe he takes Kyungsoo for granted, not that he is doing it on purpose.

Should he… try it with Kyungsoo?

His supposed destined soul mate?











Kyungsoo blinks his sleepiness away as he walks back home after his last part time job. He is tired and there’s a quiz tomorrow and he is hungry. The wind is cold this night and he can’t even determine whether this shiver he is feeling right now is from the cold or from the hunger.

He stops on his tracks when some bandits around the area stop in front of him.

“Money, kid.”

Kyungsoo whimpers lowly and takes a step back, only to be held by another one.

“Out. Pour your money out.”

“I-I don’t have any money. I swear. I’m broke r-right now.” He begs, but the bandits start rummaging his bag and pockets.

“I-I swear!”

The bandits scoff when they don’t find any money on him. A few hits over him before they left him alone. Kyungsoo clutches onto his stomach as he feels the dull pain from the hit. He is quite lucky that he only got hit. Some people were said to be harassed before this.

As he limps back to his poor and shabby living place, a memo is stuck onto the door.

Rent is due in two weeks. Pay or pack.

Kyungsoo holds back his tears and he wonders what has he done in his previous life to deserve this kind of punishment?

Grabbing the memo, he crumples it and throws it to the ground.

Maybe he really needs to consider that announcement.











Jongin watches people walk pass him. Some greet him while the others stare at him.

Baekhyun is nowhere to be found, as it’s clear as the day that he is avoiding him.

Kyungsoo is nowhere to be found as well, as it’s so hard to find him nowadays.

He is thinking about talking to Kyungsoo and then sees where the talk might bring them. Maybe, maybe they could try.











Kyungsoo takes a deep breath as he knocks onto the head’s office. As the soft voice of ‘come in’ resonates, he breathes once more before stepping inside.

“Oh, Mr. Do,” the head greets him with a smile as she likes him for his hard work, “is there anything I can help you with?”

Fiddling with his fingers, Kyungsoo sits in front of the kind woman.

“I… I’m wondering whether the announcement about study exchange is still available. Because if yes, then I… I would like to apply.”









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A/N: Three months, eh? Haha, sorry not sorry. Short chapter, but hope you enjoy this. Thanks for reading ^^ Comments will be very appreciated and will make me very happy! I'll try to update sooner! lol