To Begin Again (Epilogue)

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Title: To Begin Again (Epilogue)

Pairing: Chanbaek

Genre: Ex-loverAU, Romance, Fluff, Smut

Length: Oneshot

Summary: Baekhyun says he has moved on, but in reality, he has not. Chanyeol says he doesn’t care, but in reality, he does. It’s the perfect reason to start everything again, isn’t it?













Poster by: ☾ Peaceful Moonlight ☾ Graphic Shop




Part 1



Baekhyun has lost count on how many kisses he has shared with his now boyfriend but it’s okay, they have to make up for the lost time.

With the assignment turned in at the due time, Baekhyun heaves out a relieved sigh and can only hope to see an A later. He makes such a big sacrifice just for this assignment. God knows how much tears he has shed for this one.

“Are you feeling okay, Baekhyun?” Kyungsoo comes up and asks in concern, putting a gentle hand on top of his shoulder.

Baekhyun nods his head, “Yeah. What’s up?”

“You are so depressed for the last two weeks and now you come smiling like an idiot while handing your assignment to the professor just now.”

It makes Baekhyun grins. Kyungsoo is such a best friend material.

“Let’s just say that I have gotten a jackpot-likely.”

Kyungsoo says nothing but the questioning stare from him tells otherwise. Baekhyun decides to spare him the detail.

“I will just tell you later. For now, I need to pee. Hold my bag for me.”

As he finishes peeing and walks out from the restroom, he finds Kyungsoo is staring at him questioningly.

“What?”

“I’m still curious.” Kyungsoo deadpans.

Baekhyun grabs his bag back from him and walks out of the building, his friend walking right behind him.

It’s sudden and Baekhyun doesn’t see it coming; but there is a Park Chanyeol standing at the entrance of his college and-

Wait, what?

“Baekhyun!” He calls, all smiles and cheerful.

“W-what... what are you doing here?” Baekhyun exclaims in surprise because he does not expect this, mind you.

Chanyeol grins softly and steps close to him.

“Waiting for you. It’s lunch time and I have this place I like to visit and I promise they have great menu.”

Baekhyun gapes like a fish. Has Park Chanyeol just asked him out for a lunch date?

Chanyeol laughs softly and pats his head.

“Earth to Baekhyun. Do you hear me?”

“I... I do, but... are you real?” He mutters, reaching a hand out to feel the other male and oh, he is real and not his imagination. Baekhyun has been imagining this scene in his brain for so many years.

“I’m real, Baekhyun.” He says with a laugh before poking his nose with his finger.

Baekhyun yelps, glaring at him and is about to retort about something when a voice, or rather a person, interrupts him from doing so.

“K-Kyungsoo!” He gasps, finally remembering that his friend is still right there and most possibly has watched the whole scene.

“I expect an explanation soon, Mr. Byun. See you tomorrow.” Kyungsoo says before walking away and giving him a hand move of I’m-watching-you style.

Great.

“Is that your friend?” Chanyeol asks right beside his ear and it causes Baekhyun to yelp.

“Stupid!”

“What? I’m just asking and you call me stupid?” Chanyeol’s lips make a small pout and Baekhyun cooes internally.

“I’m not- I just- I-”

Chanyeol laughs at his stutter before pecking his cheek softly, making Baekhyun mewls in surprise. Park freaking Chanyeol has just gave him an innocent kiss in a public place.

“You do not just –”

“Yes I just did.” Chanyeol gives him a grin, a wide one and it makes Baekhyun’s heart flutters.

He opens his mouth to say something but nothing comes out. Chanyeol grabs his hand and holds onto it tightly as he starts dragging him to walk out of the college.

Baekhyun can do nothing other than staring at the sight of their hands locked together like it is the most normal thing to do. They have ever had any close skin ship like this for the years they have known each other. It surprises him.

“C-Chanyeol… are you alright?” He can’t help but to blurt it out.

The tall male glances at him questioningly and how funny the sight of it, as the nerd one was Chanyeol and Baekhyun was usually the brave one, but now their role reserved. He is the one being tongue-tied everytime Chanyeol as much as only stares at him.

“Of course I am. Why won’t I?”

Baekhyun mutters incoherent words as he tries to come up with a reply but to no avail he only ends up making fun of himself. Chanyeol seems to understand what he is thinking because the tall male laughs softly and tightens his grip on his hand to keep their pace together.

“Save it for later, Baekhyun. Let go eat.”

Baekhyun ends up being tugged along the way to the bus stop.

As they settle into the seat with Baekhyun getting the one beside the window, he can’t help but to feel a bit nervous. Why won’t he?

He is now sitting together, side by side with his forever first love and oh gosh, Chanyeol is practically his boyfriend now.

The thought makes him shivers in delight.

Chanyeol lifts his hand up to feel his forehead.

“Are you having fever? You just shiver. Is the wind too strong? Want to change place with me?”

The continuous questions throw Baekhyun off guard and holy mama, is this the feeling of having a lover worrying over you? If yes, then damn it, he likes it. A lot.

“No, I... I’m fine.” He mutters lowly.

Chanyeol sends him an unsure gaze.

“I’m serious! Just... just stop staring,” Baekhyun mutters in embarrassment because Chanyeol and his big eyes do nothing to calm his racing heart.

Chanyeol’s lips slowly form a grin, “Are you being shy, Baekhyun? You are usually the bold one.”

I know, right, Baekhyun wants to retort but holding himself back because it will seem so miserable.

So, he chooses to just stare down at their intertwined fingers and relishes in the feeling of finally being able to do this. Only God knows for how many years he has been picturing how going on a date with Chanyeol.

There is a rush of braveness surging and Baekhyun finds himself leaning his head down onto Chanyeol’s shoulder comfortably.

He can’t see how Chanyeol reacts but he is glad because he won’t be able to hide his red face then.

Chanyeol stays silent for like three seconds before he chuckles and Baekhyun closes his eyes when the tall male presses a soft kiss on the crown of his head.

“Cute.” Chanyeol mutters against his hairs.

Baekhyun can just fly in happiness.



A lunch date with Chanyeol is very nice and refreshing. It has been so long since the two of them can sit down together like this and enjoy meals like they have all the time in the world.

Chanyeol has changed, yes, but his personality is still very well the same. He is still that weird kid but he has matured very nicely.

“Finish the soup, Baekhyun.”

“But-”

“No buts. I don’t want you to get thinner than this.”

Oh. Commanding Chanyeol is hot.

Like... his eyes go smaller into slits from behind his glasses and there is a frown on his face and his lips draw a thin line.

Baekhyun chews on his lip, because he is enjoying this too much.

Teasing Chanyeol can be very interesting.

“I don’t want to finish it. You finish it for me.”

Chanyeol sends him a sharp glare.

“Baekhyun.”

“No. No. No.” Baekhyun mutters a melody of girl group song.

Chanyeol puts down his chopsticks and sighs.

“Why are you making this so hard for me?”

The question pulls a small smile on Baekhyun’s lips and he ends up laughing softly.

“Okay, okay. Don’t go all dramatic to me.”

As he gulps the remaining of his soup down his throat, he can see the stare Chanyeol is giving him and he will be very stupid to say that he doesn’t see the sincere love in it.

Just with a mere glance from Chanyeol, Baekhyun knows he has done the right thing.

Sure, there is still a long way to fully forgive Chanyeol from all the pain he has caused him for so many years but Baekhyun will be even stupider to even refuse him.

The past is the past and he really has to move on. Chanyeol is in both of his past and present, but he will slowly forget the painful past and just live the happy present now. Sometimes, you just don’t need to think too much.

“Baekhyun? Are you okay?” Chanyeol asks worriedly, thumbing his knuckles.

“Oh, yeah. Are we done? Should we go?”

Chanyeol nods and helps putting his coat back on. Baekhyun grants him a smile, a complete one with squeezed eyes and sharp little teeth peeking shyly from behind his lips.

The tall male stutters for a second before he bends down to kiss his lips softly.

Baekhyun yelps.

“I’m sorry I can’t hold back my desire to kiss you. Stop being so cute.” Chanyeol mutters as his face reddens.

Baekhyun chews his lip and looks away in embarrassment because Chanyeol has the nerve to kiss him at the public place like this.

They quickly pay for the meals and rush out of the place, with Baekhyun being so shy but clinging entirely on Chanyeol’s arm.

They leave with a smile on their face.



“So, you are Chanyeol?”

The tall male grips onto his knees and nods his head, “Yes.”

Baekhyun stays silent beside him, not saying anything.

“Are you sure you can promise to not make my Baekhyunnie cry again? Don’t ever underestimate me. House wife can be very strong.”

Chanyeol gulps.

“Yes, Mrs. Byun. I promise.”

“Do you know how much tears my son has shed for so many years?”

“Yes.”

“And how are you going to make it up to him?”

“By making him happy for the rest of his life.”

Baekhyun watches his mom with a smile on his face. The terrified look on Chanyeol’s face is very entertaining.

His mom glances at him and he nods at her.

“Okay. You pass.”

At that, Chanyeol lets out a deep sigh and Baekhyun can’t hold himself back from laughing.



It is like what they are doing right now are what Baekhyun has always imagined for so long.

They go on dates, they cuddle, and they kiss.

Chanyeol loves hugging him tight and Baekhyun thinks maybe he is still feeling kind of guilty and trying to make it up by showing his affection a little bit more.

The cuddles are no joke, because Chanyeol is tall and broad and super, super warm. Baekhyun purrs like a little kitten and nudges his head right under the tall male’s chin. Chanyeol never says anything but an amused chuckle coming from his says so.

And the kisses... damn it. Chanyeol might be an amateur in relationship, not that Baekhyun is any different, but he knows how to kiss. He has such thick and plump lips and he knows how to use them to the max because whenever Chanyeol kisses him, Baekhyun is always left breathless and wanting more.

It doesn’t seem any different because there is a look in Chanyeol’s eyes as they both breath heavily after a session of making out, where lips are swollen and red and eyes teary from the lack of oxygen but very much loved.

Just as right now.

It’s Saturday and they go for a lovely date, consists of watching a movie, then buy some clothes, and then a candle light dinner. Baekhyun’s parents are out of the town, working for his dad and visiting the sick sibling for his mom, so he can get back home at any time he wants.

Chanyeol takes him up until the front door and he is grinning happily when Baekhyun offers him to come in.

As they both are settling on top of his bed, cuddling and chatting about light things, Baekhyun realizes then there is a continuous glance Chanyeol is sending him.

“What is it?” He asks, tugging onto Chanyeol’s arm wrapped around his waist.

The tall male shakes his head no at the beginning but Baekhyun insists that he has to tell him because he is acting so weird. Chanyeol looks hesitant and the face he is sporting is like he is constipated.

“I... You... Um, I mean we- we have, ugh,”

“Why are you stuttering?” Baekhyun sits straight to face him, frowning.

Chanyeol says nothing, but he grips tight on his waist, sending Baekhyun to be more confused.

“Chanyeol-”

“I want... you.”

Baekhyun blinks.

“Uh? Me?”

“Yes, um, you. Baekhyun.”

“I don’t understand.” Baekhyun whispers, clueless.

“I want you as in... that.”

Chanyeol is blushing by now and it doesn’t make any sense to Baekhyun because what does he mean with-

Oh.

“Oh.” He mutters.

“Yeah.” Chanyeol mutters back.

Red creeps to the side of Baekhyun’s neck before the color slowly fills the entire of his face.

Oh, so, Chanyeol wants to have sex with him.

Baekhyun has seen this coming actually. He can’t blame Chanyeol, because he will be a hypocrite for that. The both of them are healthy young males with needs and it has been a while since Baekhyun last watches some porn to jack off. Chanyeol is always the one popping in his brain now whenever he touches himself in the shower.

Baekhyun wants him, too, damn it.

“Okay.”

“Okay?” Chanyeol asks back in confusion, embarrassment forgotten for a second.

“Okay. Let’s do it. Let’s have sex.”

Chanyeol splutters in shock, “Baekhyun, you can’t be saying it nonchalantly!”

Rolling his eyes, Baekhyun crawls on his knees and settles on top of his boyfriend’s lap.

“What’s wrong with you? You come up with this so finish it. Besides, we have the whole house until tomorrow noon so we are safe.”

Chanyeol is staring at him.

“You are really serious about this, don’t you?”

“Dead serious.” Baekhyun gazes into his eyes.

It takes a moment of silence before Chanyeol is gazing at him with an unreadable stare.

“I’m not the only one thinking about this, right?”

“Yeah,” Baekhyun whispers before wrapping his arms around Chanyeol’s neck to pull him into a kiss.



And that is how he now ends up with head thrown back and chest heaving up and down as his tall boyfriend is peppering kisses down his skin.

“Shit, Baekhyun, you are so fucking beautiful.”

Baekhyun wants to chuckle at the rare curse word Chanyeol is saying but his voice dies in his throat when the tall male envelopes his nipple with his warm lips.

“Nnnh...”

Chanyeol grounds himself down, eliciting a breathless gasp from him when their equally erect cocks slide together, bare against bare.

“Hurry up,” Baekhyun insists, lifting a knee up and spreading the other one wider open.

Chanyeol is breathing so hard, fingers splaying on Baekhyun’s hips digging tight.

Baekhyun’s erratic breathing echoes in the silent room as his tall boyfriend makes rounds of kisses down his skin, purposely avoiding his leaking cock and going straight to mark his inner thigh.

He yelps, however, when Chanyeol suddenly flips him down to his stomach.

“I want to do this.” He whispers against his shoulder blade.

“Do what?”

Chanyeol answers him by lifting his hips up and leaning closer. Baekhyun tries watching his movement through his shoulder but he gives up when the tall male digs his teeth on his plump ass cheek.

“Ah,”

There is a mark being done on the skin before warm and big palms spreading his cheeks wide.

“Chanyeol-”

There is a lick from the bottom of his balls up passing his entrance. Baekhyun keens at the feeling, mewling in surprise against the pillow.

“C-Chanyeol!”

The tall male ignores him and gets closer to his twitching entrance, eyeing it lustfully. A second passes and Baekhyun thinks he will stop, but then he feels Chanyeol’ harsh breathe against his anal and the very same lips he has kissed for so many times are pressed against his entrance, licking and then sucking vigorously.

A long strained moan breaks past Baekhyun’s lips as he is being eaten out by his very own boyfriend.

“Ah... c-chanyeol, ngghh...”

Slurping sounds come entering his ears, making Baekhyun feels so weirdly aroused and wanting more.

His hips move on their own and start fucking down on Chanyeol’s tongue which he sticks in a while ago.

“Yes, please,” Baekhyun begs.

Chanyeol draws his face back, ignoring the whine from him and there is a finger slowly entering him.

It’s a bit odd but nonetheless welcomed.

The second one joins in almost as soon, pumping in and out and spreading wide. Baekhyun has long gone into insanity to even care.

Three fingers rubbing his warm inner walls and continuously poking onto his right spot.

Then it happens to quick for Baekhyun to comprehend.

Chanyeol pulls his fingers out and Baekhyun doesn’t even get a second to rest, because a penis is pushing past the rim of his hole, and fuck, the stretch is really good.

“Aah!” He cries out, scratching his pillow.

Chanyeol grunts, pushing in more inches.

Baekhyun feels his head spins. He is doing this. Finally. After so many years longing for the tall boy, he now has his dick inside of him.

“Chanyeol!!” He screams when the tall male pushes in completely.

It’s so fucking good.

They stop moving for like five seconds before Chanyeol then drags out and pushes in, repeating that for a moment until finally he loses his control and begins jack hammering into him.

Baekhyun drools onto the sheets, moaning in delight because this is so much better than what he has been imagining for all the time.

Chanyeol has such monstrous cock. Fuck.

With each thrust and strong ram, he feels himself thinking back to the moment when he can’t stop himself from crying over the fact that he can’t be with his first love. He remembers the moments where he curses Chanyeol and the moments where he calls for his name when he is feeling too horny and jacking off to the memory of his voice.

And now, look at him.

He has that man pummeling his huge cock in and out of his ass hole.

“Baekhyun, unff,”

“Chanyeol, c-close- ah, oh, ooohh...”

The tall male surprisingly pulls out. Baekhyun moans in frustration because how dare he.

But he is being spun back to lay in his back and in a swift moment, Chanyeol is back entering him with a groan.

The movement is more composed this time, and Baekhyun can’t help but to stare at the pleasured face Chanyeol is making.

It feels very special because they are each other’s first love and now they are losing their first time together as well.

Warmth filling his heart all of sudden, Baekhyun wraps his arms around the male’s shoulder todrag him down despite him thrusting powerfully into him.

“I l-love you, Chan. S-So much...”

Chanyeol stills his movement and draws back far enough to look into his eyes.

“I love you, too. More than you know.”

Baekhyun smiles up at him.

“I’m so happy to hear that. So freaking happy that I’m losing my mind.” He whispers, thumbing at Chanyeol’s cheek tenderly.

Chanyeol stares, “I’m sorry for all the pain, Baek. Really, really sorry.”

Baekhyun pecks his lips, “Let’s try to move on. I have you now and you have me. Just living the present is enough for me.”

Chanyeol dips down to kiss his lips slowly, relishing the strong feeling between them.

“I promise to never walk away again. I promise to never let you walk away from me either.”

Baekhyun feels tears prick at the corner of his eyes and he smiles widely.

“Just give me one more promise though, Chanyeol.”

“What is it?”

“Promise me that... this is a new beginning for us and we will be okay.”

Chanyeol kisses his temple.

“We will be more than okay. Trust me.”

Baekhyun nods.

It doesn’t take long before they finish their orgasm and bask in the feeling of loving each other.



In the morning, Baekhyun is riding his boyfriend’s dick like a pro because seeing Chanyeol sleeping all naked and cute beside him and feeling his morning wood poking his lower back is making him horny as well.

So he ends up riding him once and then taken against his computer desk once and getting a blowjob in the shower.

It takes them about another hour before they are clean and clothed neatly. By the time they are cuddling on a brand new sheet after changing it, Baekhyun’s stomach growls for food.

“I’m hungry.” He moans before reluctantly getting up onto his feet, Chanyeol not far from him.

Baekhyun fixes them a simple dish of brown rice mixed with minced beef and scrambled eggs. Chanyeol’s eyes shine as he digs in immediately. Baekhyun watches his boyfriend slupring down the dish he cooks happily.

It’s been another dream of him to cook for Chanyeol and watch him eat it happily as if it was the most delicious food in the whole world.

“You are really good, Baekhyun. Who knows you can cook really well now,” Chanyeol comments, sending him a wide grin that is so blinding that makes Baekhyun sighs fondly.



As they are back cuddling on the couch in the living room, Baekhyun locks his gaze onto his boyfriend as the tall male is watching some music program in the TV.

As if he was sensing his gaze on him, Chanyeol looks down and finds himself a pair of droopy puppy eyes staring intently at him. He smiles and dips low enough to kiss his temple.

“What are you looking at?” He asks.

Baekhyun lets out a small smile, shaking his head.

“Nothing. Just looking at the definition of love.”

Chanyeol laughs at his answer.

“When do you get so cheesy, huh?” He retorts as he rubs their noses together.

It pulls a light laugh from Baekhyun’s lips and he settles to bury his face into Chanyeol’s neck.

“I love you so much. I really do.” He whispers.

He feels Chanyeol’s arms tightening around him, as if he was reassuring him that he won’t go away.

“I love you more. Even before you do.”

Baekhyun’s mouth curves into a smile as he remembers the moment where he doesn’t even know that there is a Park Chanyeol as his classmate. He remembers Chanyeol being the one approaching him and that is the time when their story starts.

“I know, right. You are so creepy. You follow me around like a stalker.”

Chanyeol knocks his head with his knuckles, making Baekhyun whines like a kicked puppy.

“I’m sorry that I’m just trying to get the attention of some classmate I like so much. I’m not a stalker, mind you.”

“You appear at the times I never think you will. You are creepy, Chanyeol. Admit it.”

“No-”

“I’m six meters from the school and I’m walking alone, until suddenly you come up like a ghost.”

Chanyeol stays silent.

“Okay. I do stalk you a few times but that is only because I need to keep you in my sight or I will lose you.”

“See who’s being so cheesy now.” Baekhyun teases, pecking his cheek softly.

Chanyeol pinches his nose and Baekhyun wails like a kid.

“I do that just so that I won’t lose you. See, even in the tender age of teenage I manage to keep you in my mind all the time. I think it is just a mere puppy crush but who knows you haunt my brain in every minute that I actually… fall for you, love.”

Baekhyun grips onto Chanyeol’s shirt and he nods shyly.

“Yeah.”

Chanyeol cradles him closer.

“I know I should not say this, but I’m quite thankful that we are both getting hurt in this process, Baekhyun. I’m once a very foolish and childish boy, I still am sometimes, but I think with the short separation we have, it helps me growing up and now I know that I should never let something so dear to me go that easily. That time helps me realize on how much I’m in love with you and how much of a stupid I am.”

Baekhyun watches as he talks.

“It helps me a lot, Baekhyun. It helps me to be a better person now, a more matured person, a person who now knows what to prioritize in his life, a person who will not repeat the same mistake of letting you go for the second time. I promise, I won’t.”

He says it so sincerely that Baekhyun finds tears filling his eyes and he nods his head eagerly.

“Me, too. You grow up. I grow up. That time hurts me so much, but now I’m not the same stupid boy who thinks that love is the only thing I have. I know now that I have been through a lot and that I learn to make the best decision I can come up with. It’s all thanks to you, Chanyeol.”

“We are being so emotional, don’t you think so?” Chanyeol teases as he thumbs Baekhyun’s cheek so tenderly.

Baekhyun chuckles, nodding.

“You start it.”

“I love you.” Chanyeol tells before pecking his mouth so suddenly.

Baekhyun blinks in surprise and then he sits back onto his shin, only to hold Chanyeol’s face I his palms.

“I love you so much, my dear giant silly boy, Chan.” He says as he peppers kisses all over the other’s face.

Chanyeol closes his eyes as he gets the treatment, a happy smile lingering on his lips.

He exchanges the position and he now is the one pressing a kiss on every inch of Baekhyun’s face.

“My sunshine in the darkness, my savior in every second, my umbrella in rainy days, my puppy in every moment, Baek. You hold the biggest part of my heart. You do.”

Baekhyun grins as he gets the softest kiss of the day on his lips.

His chest feels so full and warm and the feeling is so indescribable that he doesn’t want to change it for anything in the whole world.

His heart throbs for this goofy smiling giant here.



Chanyeol looks at him with so much love that it melts him.

Baekhyun has never been so happy before.

And then he thinks, it’s really not a mistake to begin again with Chanyeol.

He loves him too much.

Chanyeol catches his stare.

He kisses him sweetly again.









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A/N: Enjoy.