For You

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Title: For You [Bonus chapter of The Beta]

Pairing: Chanbaek

Genre: Romance, Fluff, Semi-Angst, WolfAU

Length: Oneshot

Summary: Insecurity visits Baekhyun like an old friend and Chanyeol is ready to ensure him that they are perfect together.

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This is going to be the third Christmas they are going to spend together. After being mated for three years, Baekhyun has never felt this happy. It’s like whatever Chanyeol does, it’s perfect.



Except for this one time.





Baekhyun rolls on the bed, waking up and mind still blank. It takes him a full minute before he realizes that his alpha is not in the bed with him. Frowning, he sits up; eyes droopy and nose scrunched up, with hair resembles a bird’s nest.

“Chan?” He croaks, clearing his throat afterwards.

There’s no answer coming from anywhere and with his mouth wide opened as a yawn escapes, Baekhyun makes his way out from the bedroom and heads towards the kitchen.

It’s weird, because he can’t seem to find his mate standing there, brewing coffee like usual.



“Chan? Chanyeol?” He tries again, blinking his eyes to chase away the sleep.

There’s a small not on the kitchen counter with the writing from Chanyeol, containing a short Work’s calling for me urgently! I’ll call you later. Love you.

Baekhyun pouts to no one, putting the note back onto the counter before he heads back to the bedroom.

It’s his day off today ad he thinks that he can spend at least half of the day with Chanyeol in the bedroom, doing… whatever they want to do.

His mate starts taking over his father’s company and he spends most of his time in his office, cuddling with papers and contracts rather than snuggling with his mate in the bed.

Baekhyun tries to be the most understanding mate ever and he says nothing about Chanyeol spending his time out more than usual for these days.

Moreover, it’s almost Christmas. They should have planned a Christmas party by now and ask each other of what they want as a present. Not talking through notes on the kitchen counter or on the fridge.



Reaching for his phone, Baekhyun drops the towel he uses to dry his wet hair and he unlocks the device. He wants to call his mate, just to hear his voice for at least five minutes before letting him back to work again.

He nods, yeah, he should call because he misses him.

The monotone voice rings into Baekhyun’s ear as soon as he presses the call. He grabs his towel again and unconsciously bites onto the fabric, just because.

“Baek?” Chanyeol’s voice comes straight into his ear and Baekhyun feels his heart flutters.

“Hey,” he murmurs, rubbing his feet together to distract himself from the fluttering feeling.

“What’s up? Do you need something? Have you eaten?”

Baekhyun opens his mouth and smiles slightly because he loves the way Chanyeol’s concerned voice echoes in the phone.

“No, I just… uh, want to hear your voice.” He whispers softly ad squeezes his eyes close because his mate has the nerve to laugh at his awkward confession. He should have known by now that saying cheesy things is not Baekhyun’s style.

“You should have just said that you miss me.” The alpha teases him and Baekhyun gruntes under his breath; feeling embarrassed and not wanting to know just how red the tip of his ears by now.

“I have heard your voice now so I should hand up.” He hisses to hide his embarrassment.

Chanyeol’s soft call of ‘wait’ stops him from hanging up and Baekhyun brigs the phone back to his ear.

“What?” He all but barks yet no one can hear any malice in his tone.

There’s a chuckle from the other line before a soft whisper of, “I love you,” makes Baekhyun freezes.

His teeth dig onto his lower lip and he bends his head down; all blushing and his bangs cover his eyes.

“…I love you, too, dumbass. Hurry up and get back home.”









Christmas is approaching soon, only five days left and Baekhyun ponders over the option of buying Chanyeol his forever-favorite expensive set of snapbacks or just goes with that wrist watch that he saw last week at the mall.

Chanyeol is taking a week off for Christmas and to take a break from the dozens of work for a while. It makes him happy that Chanyeol won’t be that busy for a while but,

It’s weird because his mate goes out almost everyday.



Baekhyun tries to think positive.

But it’s hard to do so.

Because Chanyeol comes back everyday with a faint scent of something sweet surrounding him and Baekhyun starts to have doubt.



What if he is not enough?

No longer pretty?

No longer satisfying?



What if Chanyeol doesn’t want him as his mate anymore?



Doubts fill Baekhyun’s mind for days.





The first day Chanyeol got back with a different scent on him, Baekhyun asks him curiously about it and the answer he got is:

“Nothing to worry about, Baek.”





On the second day, Chanyeol came home with a stronger scent on him, all sweet and alluring and Baekhyun can’t put up on what it is. His mate seems to be hiding something from him.

The alpha acts nothing different from before. He hugs him as soon as he hangs up his coat and kisses his lips softly like he usually does.

But Baekhyun is more interested on that sweet scent.

It’s a woman’s scent.

He knows it.

And it’s clearly not his mother, not his secretary, not his cousins.

But who?





The third day, Baekhyun ignores the stinging ache in his chest when Chanyeol doesn’t bother to wake him up and he is already out of the house, going to God knows where.

He starts having suspicion.

The ugly voices are back.



Baekhyun gets onto the corner of the bedroom, knees up to his chest as he covers his ears in fear.




No one wants you.

Look at you! A beta!

Just a mere beta and nothing more.

Even your mate is leaving you alone.

Why do you even alive?





He wonders how much tears has he shed while his mate is out of the house, but Baekhyun has had enough of this. He needs to confront Chanyeol or he is going crazy soon.



It doesn’t take long before Chanyeol is back home. Baekhyun drops the blanket to the ground and gets out of the room, greeting his mate who is having an even stronger scent on him.

Baekhyun feels the urge to barf.



“Where were you?” He asks, voice cracking.

“Baek, what’s with your eyes?” Chanyeol steps closer, reaching a hand to touch him but Baekhyun slaps his hand away and glares at him.

“Answer me.”

“Baekhyun, what’s wrong? You are scaring me.”

“Answer me!” He screeches, fists curling in anger.

“I was out. What happened? Are you- are you okay?” Chanyeol keeps on avoiding his question and it confirms Baekhyun’s suspicion.

He scoffs, disbelief written all over his face.



“And you say you love me…” He mutters under his breath, before walking pass the alpha to grab his coat and heads towards the front door.

Chanyeol is grabbing his arm in a second, demanding an explanation.

“Where are you going? What’s going on?” He asks, face full of concern and worry.



Baekhyun feels his heart melts from the concern, but then again, the louder voice in his head is talking again.

He is just pretending. Save yourself from heart break.

Yanking his arm out of the alpha’s grip, Baekhyun bares his teeth at him, growling.

“Answer me. Where were you? What were you doing just now? Whose scent is this? Answer me, goddammit!!” He barks to him.



He should have known that Chanyeol is as hard-headed as he is, so when they are having a fight, no one would want to give up.



Baekhyun could feel the anger rising from his mate and he wants to shrink back and cower under his bed, but the voices are encouraging him to say more.



“What are you talking about?! Are you accusing me?” Chanyeol steps closer to him, eyes glowering in anger.

“Fuck you.” Baekhyun pushes him on his chest, stepping back towards the door, but Chanyeol’s hand stops him once again, grip tight and hurting without he himself realizes it.

“I’m asking you where you are going!” He shouts to him and Baekhyun flinches in surprise.

“And I’m asking you what you were doing!!” He shouts back.

Chanyeol stares at him, gaze hard and unwavering, before simply answering, “Nothing that should concern you.”



Baekhyun feels his heart drops and he spins on his heels, pushing the front door open and running away.



Nothing that should concern you.



Right.

Because he is not a good mate.

And Chanyeol needs someone better than a useless beta in his life.







His legs bring him towards his second favorite person’s house and despite the chilling temperature; he steps towards the door and lifts his fist to knock on it.

He could hear laughter from the inside and the soft padding of legs coming closer to him, before the door is opened for him.





“Baekhyun?”



He stares up at the house owner’s eyes and feels tears spilling down to his cheeks.

“Soo.”

“What happened? Let’s get in, you are freezing.” His omega friend grabs him by his arm and gently leads him in.

The scent of newly baked ginger cookies and the warmth of heater greet him. Baekhyun finds his knees weakening at the foreign feeling.

“Baekhyun? What’s wrong?”

This might be the first time of him breaking down in tears in front of his friend but Baekhyun couldn’t care anymore. Not when his heart is thumping so painfully.



It takes him a while before he could calm down and when he finds the whole family is staring at him, Baekhyun breaks into a forced smile to tell them that he is fine.

Kyungsoo rubs his back to calm him down and Jongin comes up from the kitchen with a glass of citrus tea for him.

Jongin and Kyungsoo’s triplets are staring at him, before the second child, who is Baekhyun’s favorite, comes up to him and wipes his tears away with her tiny fingers.

“Don’t cry.” She mutters to him and Baekhyun smiles.

“Thank you, Byul.”

She smiles and Baekhyun feels light.







He watches the small family interacting with each other and he feels warm in his chest. The alpha is very gentle to his omega friend and with the addition of three pups, their family is perfect.

Baekhyun could never feel this way.



After excusing himself from his friend’s house and apologizing for interrupting their family time, Baekhyun walks back, with mind full of things.

Chanyeol should be worried right now because he sprints out without bringing his phone with him.

But then again, is he really worried for him?

It takes all of his strength to not break down in another round of tears in the middle of the street.



Three years.

So that’s how long they could go on.

And it’s Christmas Eve.



Baekhyun enters their house and curled under the blanket alone, because he couldn’t find Chanyeol.

Not that he could blame him. Really.



***



Christmas morning comes way too fast and Baekhyun opens his eyes. He has come to a decision last night and he knows that they have to sit down and talk like an adult.

He sits up on the bed, finally realizing that someone else sits on the edge of the bed, staring at him.

“Hey.” Chanyeol greets him with a small smile.

Baekhyun couldn’t find himself to answer and he opts to bend his head down.

“Look, Baek, I’m –”

“Chanyeol,” He cuts, fingers gripping onto the blanket. “Let’s not hurt each other by keeping this. I love you and all but if everything has become a burden to you, then we should let go.”

“Baek, what are you talking about?” The alpha questions in an alarmed tone.

Baekhyun shakes his head, feeling tears blurring his sight. Don’t fall, don’t fall, don’t let him see your tears.

“We should end this while we are still okay. You are an alpha; you should find someone proper for you. This has been the happiest three years in my life and I don’t want to drag you down. You deserve so many things better than being with me.”

“Baekhyun, you stop right there.” Chanyeol says sternly, moving to sit in front of him.

“No, this is not going to work anymore, Chan. You loved me and I love you, but I shouldn’t be the reason to keep you here. You can find a better life outside there. You can be with someone you want and have pups and have a complete family. You can –”

“Byun Baekhyun!” He screams on top of his lungs; palms grabbing the beta’s face harshly.



He cries.

An alpha cries.

Chanyeol cries.



“What are you talking about? I don’t want anyone else.” He says, voice not louder than a whisper. Baekhyun stares at him through his blurry gaze, because, fuck, he cries again.

“I want you to be happy.” He murmurs, lips trembling and heart wrenching in pain because letting Chanyeol go doesn’t seem to be that easy to do.

“I’m happy with you.”

“I need to let you go, Chanyeol.”

“I don’t want you to let me go.” The alpha mutters, pressing their foreheads together. Baekhyun closes his eyes, shaking his head.

“We lack of honesty, Chanyeol. We both don’t fit. Are you saying you are happy living a life like this with me?”

“Yes, yes. I am.” The other chants, another drop of tears rolls down his face. “I love you so much, Baekhyun. I can’t imagine living without you. Did I do wrong? I’m going to fix my mistakes. Please tell me what it is.”

“It’s not your fault. Everything’s mine. My presence is the first mistake.” Baekhyun murmurs, gasping when suddenly Chanyeol kisses his lips gently, before the both of them cries again.

“I’m sorry, Baek. I’m not cheating on you. I swear.”

“Then where were you these days?” Baekhyun asks softly, because he needs closure. Damn it, he can’t seem to stop crying.

Chanyeol parts his mouth before leaning back. Baekhyun wants his warmth back and almost reaching for him.

“Come with me.”







Baekhyun grips onto Chanyeol’s hand tighter when he brings him to the kitchen.

“I went on culinary class. I want to surprise you. I’m sorry that I make you feel this way, as if I was cheating on you.”

He gets to see various dishes, all of his favorite, and also a very beautiful cake and on top of that, a fully decorated tree in the living room.





Chanyeol remembers. He remembers everything Baekhyun has told him.

He has told him about never celebrating Christmas with a big tree and huge feast. Their previous two years Christmas didn’t go this well planned.

“I’m sorry.” He croaks out, yet crying again.

Chanyeol holds onto his face tenderly, pressing a reassuring kiss on his temple.

“I love you. And I still have another present. A very special one on top of that.”





Guiding him towards the furthest guest bedroom, Chanyeol stops and gives him the chance to open the door. Baekhyun gives his mate a hesitant gaze and with a warm palm on his back, Chanyeol guides him to turn the door knob down.



There lies the prettiest baby omega boy Baekhyun has ever seen.



“We have a pup now.” Chanyeol says and Baekhyun finds himself crying again.

The baby boy seems to feel their presence and he cracks his eyes open, smiling up at them.

“Hold him, Baek. He wants you.”

Nodding and still feeling overwhelmed, Baekhyun reaches down and lifts the baby into his arms.

“Is this for real?”

“Yes. You want a pup so badly and I think we are ready to adopt one.”

Baekhyun’s lips tremble before he is crying again and he starts peppering the baby’s face with kisses. The baby giggles at him.







“I’m sorry, because I want to give you surprises and we end up like this. I ruin our Christmas.” Chanyeol speaks once they get onto their bed; the baby sleep comfortably.

Baekhyun shakes his head and stares into the other’s eyes in apology.

“I’m too insecure and I let myself dwell in negativity again. I’m truly sorry, Chanyeol.”

“Let’s stop apologizing. We need fights to grow stronger, to grow better.”



Baekhyun nods his head, mind still registering everything that happened for the past days. A smile cracks from him and Chanyeol hugs him.

“Do you like my presents for you?”

A nod is all he could give as an answer and it’s enough for Chanyeol.



“Never forget that I love you the most. Hyunjae is the second now.”

Baekhyun laughs softly at the mention of their newly-adopted son and he hums.

“I love you, too, and I love Hyunjae, too. You two are so precious to me.”

“Glad to know that.”



Baekhyun laughs softly, followed by Chanyeol and soon, the both of them laugh away all the stress.



It’s satisfying.

He could feel their bond’s getting stronger.





“Thank you.”

“Anything for you, Baek.”





He gets a kiss on his lips and he gets the best Christmas present. The best, only for him.









***








A/N: Christmas with Chanbaek <3
Merry Christmas, guys! Comments!